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Dad posted a condolence
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Hey baby. We made it through another year without you. After 15 years it still feels like you just left. The days pass and your niece's grow up more and more like you. Beautiful, willfull and larger than life. I so wish you could be here to help guide them. I have no doubt you are watching over them. Until next time, Love Dave
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Dave posted a condolence
Friday, April 12, 2013
Zammy,
I have no idea why every year at this time I return to this site to read through our memories of you. Could it be the sping time, a time when life is springing up all around us? As we shake off the cold of winter, embrace warmer days and the joys of summer, I miss you more. As the days become longer and the family gathers more and more your absence is glaring. We speak of you frequently, of course words are really not necesssary as our memory of you is forever.
You know I will always miss your smile but I do catch of glimpse of it from time to time now in your mother. Thank you for that.
Miss you honey, love always.
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Dave posted a condolence
Friday, May 18, 2012
Morning honey,
Summer is coming and I find myself stopping to enjoy this near perfect day. Nearly perfect only because you're not here to share it with us.
We still find you in everything we do. I miss your smile and miss the glow you brought to our lives.
I hope you are safe and well whereever you are.
Much love, Dave
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Momma Duke posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Hey Daughter... Do you know where we are... Can you find us here? I can't believe I left our house... Our home... But I brought you with us... All the good memories came with us.... I only left behind the walls.... all the great memories came with us... I love you, Zam.. Dont ever forget it and dont ever leaved my heart....
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.... I wear the pain like a heavy shirt..Sometimes I wonder.... Who you'd be today....
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Momma Duke posted a condolence
Friday, September 17, 2010
I had one left - now there is none - help me see thru this, Zam.... I dont know how to say good by again.. omygod it hurts....AGAIN....
I miss you and I love you... As always... 4ever.... Mom
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Momma Duke posted a condolence
Friday, September 17, 2010
a tear falls... I am afraid... I will never love again... My heart will never be whole... It had two parts....Fre & Zam.... how do I bring your half back to life??
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Myrthy posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
"A golden heart stopped beating... a beautiful soul at rest...God broke our hearts to prove to us... he only takes the best..."
Una preciosa Angelita…sentada en las nubles...mandandole besitos y bendiciones a la familia...
Rest in peace mi Querida...
Titi Milky
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Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Hey My love:
Happy Birthday.... I'm a day late signing on, but we spent the day together and it was bitter-sweet... I wish I could just see you one more time.... to smell your hair, see your smile... to cuddle with you in bed.... Grandma was here today.. She misses you soo much... she has a hard time talking about it but we had a good conversation yesterday.... and she cried for the first time to me anyway... She' goin in for surgery again next week... please be with her and keep her safe... she's a little afraid and needs your support....
I love you baby... Happy 24th Birthday... I'll see you when I get there...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.... I wear the pain like a heave shirt.... sometimes I wonder... who you'd be today!!
Luv you tons!!
Momma Duke
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Momma-Duke posted a condolence
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Lovie....
Soooo.. It's been almost 7 years... We're comin close to those months.... those weeks.... those days.... 1st your birthday 10-3... then Danny's death day 10/28... then your death day 11/26...then Danny's birthday 3/3... how is a person, let alone a Mother, supposed to live on after something like this??? Which way do we go??
I just want you back... Still after all these years, I think if I promise I'll be good, God will feel sorry for me and give me one more minute with you... God hasn't been in the forgiving mood...
I still hurt...I still cry... my wounds are still fresh.... I still DO NOT understand... They say years will make it better..... REALLY???? Who said that?? I look at your pictures and all I can do is wonder what you'd be like today....almost 24 years old.... compared to when you left, that's grown up...
Anyway... I'm still confused... please help me understand...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most...I wear the pain like a heavy shirt..... Sometimes I wonder... who'd you'd be today...
Love forever!
Momma Duke
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JUDY posted a condolence
Monday, June 22, 2009
Momma Duke, I'm just getting home from seeing my oldest son's graduation. He is now a police officer in Florida. I read your message and I can't believe the line "we give them wings and roots'. I've never looked at it that way. I guess in every Mother's heart there is the reality of the sadness that comes with giving them the wings. Well, I left him in Florida to begin his new life. My heart is heavy with CONCERN, but I trust in God to keep him safe. I know nothing I can say will ever take away your pain, but just know that I pray to God to give you peace. If that is at all possible. Judy
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Momma-Duke posted a condolence
Saturday, June 20, 2009
To my love, my daughter.... The one who holds my heart and my sole... I love and miss you... I will always love and miss you, that's such a silly thing to say...of course I will always love and miss you.... Some days more than others... some nights, long in to the wee hours.. when it's quite and everyone is asleep.... I sit here and I can hear you run through the house, call my name....Mom, I need..... Mom, I want.... Mom, take me to the... I just want to see you once more... to touch your skin and smell your hair... To tell you just how much I love you... so you know forever that you are my little girl.. and no amount of time... no amount of space... no amount of pain or grief, will ever make this better..... THIS will never be better!!!
To Judy, thank you for your words.. I don't think it was an accident that you found this memory book... I think you were looking for a reminder.... that life can always get worse... Miss your sons, yes.. but always know that they are there with you...
There are two things we give our children.....roots & wings...
Zam.....see you when I get there.. You and Danny must visit your Dads tomorrow....place an angel kiss on their cheeks so they know that you both remember... They remember..
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judy posted a condolence
Monday, June 1, 2009
Mom, This is to Zam's Mom. I just happened upon this web site while looking for my Aunt's. I'm writing because when I came upon Zam's page I was so taken back that after all this time there are still entries. I began to read and was so heart broken. I was crying. I feel that I was sent to this page so I can appreciate what is really important in life. As parents the every day life seems to control us. We never give a thought to the unexpected. We think we had our children and they will be there til the day we pass. Your daughter must have been a beautiful person inside and as she in her picture is outside. The amount of friends that keep her in their hearts is incredible. I was reading this as I was so upset because my youngest son decided to move to Florida with his older brother. My heart was breaking, but I knew that he needed to get his life going on his own and new job opportunities where there. I'm the mother of two boys ages 23 and 25, so they are the same age that your precious Zam and Danny would be. My boys are doing very well in their chosen professions, so my crying over location is unrealistic. Reading all the entries has made me a different person. I just want to thank you for being so honest with your thoughts. I will never end a phone call mad and never not say I LOVE YOU. I guessed through reading all the entries that Zam and Danny were friends and through some type of tragic accidents they had passed at such a young age. I don't know how you feel and pray to GOD I never will, but just know it sounds to me that you and Danny's mom were extremely good parents and this cross you have to bear is enormous. If or when you read this, please know that I will hold both of you and your children in my heart and pray that GOD gives you the power to take one step at a time. Please just know the only good thing that will come of this is that your Angels are forever safe and watching over you. I hope this entry does not upset you in any way. It is meant only to offer up my prayers for your children and for your families. My prayers forever. Judy
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Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, May 24, 2009
omygod....when does this end? when does your death stop taking every breath away...when, oh when, does peace come? I want to take all my love, all my breath, all the beats of my heart.... and just disappear.. some day, a child will be as beautiful, she will be as bright and magnificant as the light that came from you..... and that day my heart will beat normally.. that day, I will look at Marcella and know for sure.... she was sent here from you to us... to remind us.....always..... that u live in our hearts......4ever.... I love you, Zam.... I still bleed....
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Mom posted a condolence
Sunday, May 24, 2009
how does a mother bury a child and then go on with life??? can anyone answer this?????
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Missy posted a condolence
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Zam,
How are you? I'm sure you are doing wonderful and are so happy. I miss you so much and still can't believe your gone. You are forever in my heart. I love you.
xoxo
Missy
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Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Here visiting...reading....
crying...just here....always here.. you are not here....where are you??
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judy posted a condolence
Monday, January 19, 2009
Hey zammy,
I am so happy to see that to this day still people are signing this, it just brings tears to my eyes to know how much you are really missed.
People say that time makes everything, all the pain, and all the heartache go away, but i dissagree 100%. I still feel the same amount of pain i did 6 years ago when you walked off this earth into heaven. It gets so hard as each and every day goes by. Words can not even express as to how much i miss you and love you angel.I question everyday as to why he does this? why does he take people that dont deserve to go yet. Why did he take you? why did he take danny? its just questions that no one has the answers for, except god because im told he has a plan for everything. the pain is unbearable. sometimes i wish that i could be up there instead of everyone that is there now. i hope you and danny are together always and you guys are happier then ever becuase you deserve it. its as if you two were meant to be together all along and maybe god was right with this plan for you two. Time is not making anything any better and thats the worst part. you will always remain in my heart and the memory of you will never fade for me i will always feel the pain of not having you around and knowing that your up there without me. your still the one that i look up to and i always will and now all i have to do is look up in the sky and there you are. At night i always look at the stars and i wonder what you are doing up there? how do you look? Have you changed at all or are you still that Gorgeous angel you were when you left? im sure it hasnt changed at all because if anything you only got more perfect babe. your the strength that i have everyday to keep carrying on.
i will always miss you babygirl. send me a sign and let me know you and danny are okay please...
it will settle a little piece of this heartache that still remains.
your family is always in my thoughts and prayers. as are you zammy.. keep watching over everyone zam, everyone needs you back in their life. i love you
i love you forever and always princess<3 judy
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maria posted a condolence
Monday, December 29, 2008
Hey beautiful..
I wonder whats it like where you are..I think its great..I think you are happy and free..and you have Danny to pester you forever now! I wonder....oh how I wonder..we miss you so..and love you more...help us all watch over us and until we meet again our hearts will NEVER be the same..xoxoxoxo
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Hey Baby.... It's been quite awhile since I've written... I'm sitting in a conference room in Omaha and all I want is to go home.. I hate being away anymore.. I just want to stay close to home.. I miss you so much... I never really loved the Holiday seasons.... Only when you and your brother were young...Now it's just a chore and another memory to get through... I just want it to be over....
I'm still not sure I've accepted that your gone. Maybe I just don't want to accept it... Maybe I'mjust waiting for you to walk theough the door and say "Mom, what for dinner"????
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heave shirt.....Sometimes I wonder, where you'd be today....
I love you, Baby... Give Danny hugs and kisses for me.... Tell him to look over his mother and we will both see you when we get there.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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christen romeo posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Zam,
I miss you still, and im convinced that there will never be a good enough reason why youve been taken away from us. It dosent get any easier. Its just like the first day. Missing you was never in our plans for the future. I love you so much, and i am greatful for your vivits. But thats just not enough. We need you HERE! Please give us strength...always, Dit.
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Brother posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
why i feel this is a good way to communicate with you, i dont know, but i love you and i miss you...
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laur posted a condolence
Sunday, March 16, 2008
i miss you zam. i just still dont get it. i love you with all my heart.
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Dave posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Hey baby,
In town for a visit are you?
You're on my mind always, but you brought me to tears this morning. I really couldn't explain what was different today next to other days.
Then your mom texted me, giving me a hard time for leaving the CD your cousins made for you in her car radio. I called and could tell she was hurting.
I told your mom of my morning, and said honey, it's not the CD. I feel Zam too, she's come to visit.
Love you.
B
Brother posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Hello Sister...Happy New Year, it's been a while...not a day goes by though,,that i don't think about you, miss you, love you.....Where are you...are you with Danny? Life has never been the same....Your on my mind....Look after John up there...I love you...
M
Missy posted a condolence
Monday, November 26, 2007
Zammy,
Five years has gone by and I wonder what you've been doing all this time. I can still remember the last time I saw you, standing in the gym, working on your full. I remember thinking "Zammy can do a full!" I was so proud of you! I wish I would have told you that. I wish I would have stayed and watched you practice longer.
Then you were gone with no goodbye. That day was such a blur and even when I look back I can still feel the pain, the heartache. I just wish I could know you today. I know you are safe in heaven watching over all of us. I will never forget you. I love you forever.
M
Maria posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Zam~~~
thinking of you today and always...PLEASE Zam if it is at all possible can you help Mom get thru these days the best you can?? I don't ask for favors very often but please this one is very important..I came to see you and Danny today--Oh Zam it is so unreal...I dont understand why and I never will..ever but I guess I am no one to question why..
I love you and will see you guys soon...have a Good Thanksgiving and make sure danny doesnt eat all the food!
maria
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Mom posted a condolence
Thursday, November 15, 2007
a tear falls... I am afraid... I will never love again... My heart will never be whole... It had two parts....Fre & Zam.... how do I bring your half back to life??
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
The clouds are moving in... The storm is getting close... I'm not sure I can get through another day without you here...
What were you doing five years ago today?? Five years ago tomorrow?? Five years ago every day until THE DAY??? Did you know what was going to happen???
Help me through it, Zam... Stay close and send me a hug.. A scent.. A sign that you are near...
I miss you... I'll see you when I get there...
Sunny days still hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today...
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
M
Mom posted a condolence
Friday, November 2, 2007
Hi Honey.... How are you today?? I was missing you so I thought I'd visit and write you a note. It's a beautiful Fall day and the sun is shining. It's getting a little colder day by day and winter will be here soon. And soon it will be five years since I've seen you... November 26th... The day that live on in my memory as the most horrifying and heartbreaking day of my life. The pain is still strong and the wounds are still fresh.. I wonder sometimes when they will finally kill me......
Marcella was just 4 and Madi was just 6. I wish they could have met you... You would have loved being an aunt... They know you in pictures, but it's not the same. And it's not fair that they did not have an opertunity to know what a wonderful person you are. Aunt Zam would have loved taking them to the Mall and spoiling them....
I miss you every day... I'll see you when I get there.... Give Danny a hug from me...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat... Sometimes I wonder..... Who you'd be today....
Love forever XOXOXOXOX
Mom
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Marian posted a condolence
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Dear Alexandra, its funny that even as I write your name, I can see your eyes rolling in the heavens, because I called you by your real and most beautiful name. You hated it when I didn't call you Zammy. I don't know why, but I enjoyed annoying you. Well, yesterday was your 22nd birthday. I was thinking of you all day, as I usually do and I wonder what you would be doing with your life at 22. Would you have a steady boyfriend? would you still be in college or working? I remember your 16th B-day and I gave you a box of products. Some of which are probably still sitting in your room. I miss our cuddly moments more than ever Zam. I don't know how we get though the days. It just takes my breath away that you're there and we're here. So until we meet again, I'll see you in my heart. Love forever and a day, aunt mar.
M
Maria posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Happy Birhtyday beautiful Zam!! I look at your pictures all the time and the beauty you have is far more then the surface...for when I look in your eyes I truly see an angel..and a soul with such love and beauty that only deserves the peace and happiness she now has.. I am sure Danny is THRILLED to be with you this year!! Last year Mom had a huge party and Dan was here...now he is there..Mom said Danny watched the balloon he wrote on fly up in the sky--I wonder what he said Zam? I think he said he cant live without you much longer and will see you soon...
Have a fun day with Dan and I am sure his Grandmom and Grandpop are there with you too to celebrate your DAY...It IS your day still Zam...forever it will be...
We all miss you so--reach out to Mom if you can and show her something...Fre is doing well but hurts still I can see it in his eyes sometimes.. Marcella is YOU! haha a real beauty!!
Well I will see you soon one day... soon..and we all will be together...remember this is not goodbye..only so long for now...
love you..
maria
ps--Dont let Danny eat all your cake!! haha
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Dave posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Happy birthday Zammy. Miss you more then ever.
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Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Happy Birthday, My Daughter... Are you 22 or are you still 17??? I ask this question every year, and I still have no answer... I wish I could just see you and hug you for your birthday. I will buy you balloons and take them to you..
Tomorrow I will fly home from this business trip. I will be closer to you when I'm flying through the clouds... I will try to get a window seat so I can look for you in the sky... Please, please, please let me see you... If even for just one second..
Sunny days still hurt the most.. I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes I wonder... Who you'd be today...
Happy Birthday, Baby...
I'll see you when I get there...
M
Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Hello Daughter...
It's been awhile since I wrote.. This doesn't mean I don't think about you every minute of every day... I've been thinking about you quite a bit the last few weeks...
There is ALWAYS a pain and emptiness in my heart without you here... But some days are worse than others. This is one of them.
There's soooo much going on here... I wish you were here to see it all. Marcella is getting so big and beautiful and smart... She reminds me of you more and more as she gets older... I have a picture of you when you were three next to a picture of Marcella at three.... You look like twins... Except for her blue eyes, she has your face...
The wedding is coming up fast.. I wish you were here to walk with your brother.. It will be a bitter sweet day for us... But we know you will be there watching over us and blessing their marriage. I hope I can hold it together, for your brother's sake..
I love you, Zam... I miss you every second of the day... Visit me in my dreams, OK??
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.... I wear the pain like a heavy shirt...Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today....
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fredo posted a condolence
Sunday, August 12, 2007
The pain is there...
fresh as ever..
its just masked a little better....
can't seem to just pull it together,
i cry for you....today , tomorrow, forever
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Missy posted a condolence
Monday, August 6, 2007
Hi Zam,
I dreamt of you last night and I can't seem to get you off my mind. I had signs of you around me all day and I wanted to come on here to tell you how much I miss you each and everyday and I still think of you always. You will be in my heart forever.
Love you,
Missy
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I'll see you when I get there... I love you... Yes, it still hurts.. Yes, I am still angry....
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat... Sometimes I wonder... who would you be today???
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I do not need a special day to bring you to my mind.
The days that I don't think of you are very hard to find.
Each morning when I awake, I know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache as I try to carry on.
My heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.
My thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill.
In life I loved you dearly; in death I love you still.
There will always be heartache, and often a silent tear.
But always precious memories of the days when you were here.
If tears could build a staircase and memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
I hold you close within my heart; and there you will remain,
To walk with me throughout my life until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, And nothing seems the same,
But as GOD calls us one by one, The chain will link again.
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Dave posted a condolence
Friday, June 1, 2007
Hey honey,
Haven't written you in a while. Not that I haven't thought of you every day. My memory of you has not faded in the least.
Your Mom and I have come to a place where we can share lifes gifts with you by only looking into each other's eyes. Those moments when you belong here with us, continues on in our hearts.
Yes I know I'm a goober, yes we are going down the shore this weekend and yes I will make sure to give your mom a look.
Miss you baby, love you.
m
maria posted a condolence
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Hi Pretty Girl~~~
I just wanted to let youknow I am thinking of you AGAIN...Hope all is good up there...Can you ask Danny to let me know he is ok? I miss him so...I thank god for your Mom..she does wonders for me although today i dont like I am doing very well...and Frey is there for Johnny and I know it is him that helps him thru these days..I dont understand why you guys are there and we are here..you were both shorted out of a life..but then again maybe you two are the lucky ones...
Keeping shining down on us Zam..and help us and tell that stubborn son of mine to come tome in a dream! Please!
I love you and will see you soon
maria
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christen posted a condolence
Friday, April 27, 2007
Hey Cuz,
Its been a while since ive written, but thats only because im so lucky to have other ways to communicate with u, and i cant begin to describe how greatful I am for that. U always find ur ways to let me know ur ok, and if it wasnt for that, I dont think id be able to get by.. I believe that u come to me to send messages to ur mom, and i promise whenever I get the chance to do so, I will. As the wheather gets nicer and the sun shines brighter, I think about u more n more. I think about the beach, vacations, and laying on the trampoline, just to get a tan.. even though u never really had a problem doing so. Ill never forget the time we spent a week on the beach in 100 degree wheather. I got tan... and u were purple!!! I miss u sooo much Zam... Please continue to visit me whenever ur not too busy...lol..and everyone else as well... ur always on my mind, and youll never be forgotten... I LOVE U TOOTS!! "DIT"
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Stephie posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Hello my lover! I miss you tons... I need a favor- Please send peace to the families of your new Virgina Tech friends. It's an absolute mess here. I wish I could come away to wherever you are and just be as complacent and happy and as peaceful as I know you are. Peace Peace Peace it's such a calming word - so pure and innocent.
I had cheer tryouts for FAU this past weekend. I have World Cup gitls on my team this year - Can you beleive it? And i made captain ahhhhh! I wore your shirt the first day and told all the new girls your story. They asked so many questions and i must have talked about you for an hour and a half. I love to talk about you - it makes me remeber your every detail. Tell mommy i said hi and that i miss her.
Give me strength my lil star u know i need it*
I love you and I miss you and I will see you someday soon <3
M
Mom posted a condolence
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Hello my love......
How are you today??? I wanted to write to say thank you for visiting me last week at Aunt Lisa's... It was the most beautiful and important few seconds of my life and I was grateful to feel and smell your presence. Please visit again soon and for longer....
I miss you tremendously.. I think about you every minute of every day and I wish I could reach out and touch you... You will never be farther away then my mind and my heart... You live on inside of me..
I love you, Zam and I will see you when I get there....Give Danny a big kiss for me and tell him to watch over his mother... She misses him so much and her wounds are raw and fresh... She needs a little peace!!
Watch over your brother..
Sunny days seem to hurt the most, I wear the pain like a heavy coat.... Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today....
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maria posted a condolence
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Hey beautiful angel....
How are you doing? Is Danny behaving himself there? I am so glad you have him there although what I really wish is that the two of you were right here with us..I dont understand life Zam, I really dont. I look at your Mom and brother and I say to myself how do they do it?? I guess it is your strength that gets them by I am hoping one day to have some strength but today it does not feel that way.. I wonder often if you and Danny were meant to be together no matter what, I just will never understand why not HERE...so we can all see you.. Please help Mom, I know people must think she is doing "ok" by now but I know it is not true. I know time has had her just get used to this life,,but she hurts just as she did the very day you left..I don't know why we have this cross to carry now...I wish I knew..All I do know is that you are so missed and we need to know you and Danny are ok..can you please let us know this? I promise I wont want more then one little dream..
I love and miss you ...kiss Danny for me
maria
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Dottie posted a condolence
Friday, March 9, 2007
I wonder what you would be like today ?? Would you be the same person..look n talk the same?? or would everything be different ? I want so bad to be able to know the answer, for us to be able to live your life with you ! Theres so many questions i need answers to n i will never get them answered. Can you hear me when i talk to you ?? I hope so..cause if not ive been talkin to myslef alot lately! WEll anyway..I came to visit the other day. I can't believe you and danny are so close ! Its soo good ! Your lucky i like you guys..it was freezing !! 100 mi. winds n below zero hahaha ! I can't win with anythign right now ...I swear no matter what i do its the wrong decision..I need your help ! I think im goin crazy haha like I wasn't before ! miss you <3
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Hello my love.... how are you?? It's snowing outside and very cold... I wish we could snuggle on my bed and watch TV like we use to.. I wish alot of things...
I know you saw Aunt Mar on Sunday.. she told me all about it... I'm so glad you talked to her this time.. She was so excited about it when she was telling me... I was a little jealous, but I got over it... I know I will see you when you think I'm ready... I know you are with me all the time, I'd just like to see you and talk with you for awhile... Give it some thought..no rush...
Say Happy Birthday to Dave today... He's getting old er...
I love you Zam... See you when I get there...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most, I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today....
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alice posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
hey zam
i was just thinkin about you and how stupid and crazy this is that i have to talk to you thru a computer its not fair..its really still so crazy to me i see ur pictures in my house and i just say why? i pray everynight that u and danny are together and at peace and that one day we will all meet again.. & all the pain will be gone for everyone who lived without u for so long.. i love u sooo much!!
ill see u again someday<3 tell danny i miss him too !
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neyy posted a condolence
Saturday, February 17, 2007
hi babygirl.
how are you doing? happy valentine's day..even though it's a couple of days late. i was at a viewing last night for ryan o'hara. he was in your class. watch out for him babe, keep him with you up there. last night was a rough night. it reminded me so much of yours. so many kids from school were there and everyone just saying how tragic it is for someone so young to pass away. all i did was think of you. today i just had to visit you. i hope you enjoyed my company and the pretty flowers i brought you. i could sit there for hours just talking to you zam. well fly high babygirl. i'll stop by again real soon. keep watching over mom, she needs you babe.
miss you.
love you darling<3
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Hello My Life.....My Love...
How are you???? It's been awhile since I wrote...There is so much to say.... So much has happened here.. But I guess you know all of it... You have a "birds-eye" view of the passing events... I just wish I could watch with you....
How is Danny??? Did you greet him with a punch and a hug?? He was 21 on Saturday.... So many of his friends and yours showed up for his Memorial Celebration... I saw soooo many familiar faces... Chaney was there... Bucci too.... Tons of people I haven't seen in awhile... I know you and Danny were there, too... I just wish we could have seen and hugged you both...
Danny has a niece... Gabriella Daniella Chirico, born Sunday, Feb 4th... The day after Danny's 21st.. She will bring joy to everyone.. Just like Marcella..
It seems almost strange that you and Danny are together... Maria and I look at pictures of the two of you all the time and often wonder if this is not what was meant to be... It's a shitty way to be together for us anyway, but at least you have eachother... It gives me a little peace to know you are not alone anymore..
Watch over us, Zam.. Especially your brother.. He needs your strength and protection.. Give him an "Angel Hug" and wrap your wings around him... "butterfly kisses" too....
I love you, Zam.... I always will... You will always be my little girl... You will always be my angel...
I'll see you when I get there....
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes, I wonder... Who you'd be today.....
Love,
Momma Duke
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maria posted a condolence
Saturday, February 3, 2007
Hi Beautiful~~
God Zam I can not believe you are with Danny this year.....How could this be that you both are not here ?? I see your Mom and Fredo and david and I wonder HOW they get thru this??? I dunno know to do this Zam..Help me can you please?/////// Please give Dan a BIG KISS for me and HUG and take care of him ok?? I love you and miss you..watch Mommy she needs you so much...WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER ONE DAY SOON
LOVE YA
MARIA
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alice posted a condolence
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Zam.. hey im thinkin about alot of things right now.. i didnt have a good day at all.. im havin a hard time understanding why these things happen.. u dont deserve to be their.. u should be with us.. id do anything to see ur face smilin at one of our family parties.. everyone misses u so much.. it hasnt been the same without u.. & sometimes i try to put the bad things out of my mind.. but its all buildin up and im loosin my mind.. u kno when i met danny i used to wish u were here so we could all hang out and have fun.. cause we around the same age now and we would have been so close.. it sux that u had to go before we ever got to hang out and party together.. but i know that ur up their with danny and use two are happy.. and keeping eachother safe and in peace.. and u both deserve that.. although we all feel pain down here.. use are both happy and that was Gods plan.. which i dont really understand but i know that one day i will when i ssee u both again.. i love and miss u so much.. not a day goes by i dont think of u both!.. help us down here..<3 especially ur mom n brother.. i love yOu angel.. <3
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fre posted a condolence
Monday, January 29, 2007
zam....sometimes im ok....sometimes im not...for some reason tonight im not, i feel empty inside, lost in space without any recolection of where to go.I know i been here before, cause it seems so familiar. where are you??????Talk abt a full plate, I couldnt come to where u are even if i wanted to..find me, guide me, love me like u always did..i love u.
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maria posted a condolence
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Hey Zam
How are you??????? HOw is Danny behaving up there with you ????? It is 3 months that you have him with you..I hope you guys are soooooo happy...We miss you more then words can say ever
love you beautiful...rest in peace now, you finally have your soulmate for life..
maria xoxox
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maria posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Hey Beautiful...
How are you? Everytime I see a picture of you and Danny, its like it was meant to happen this way..In all the pics you guys look so peaceful and happy together...I am positive that is how it is now for both of you.... I bet you are cheering up there and he is the best fullback ever! I wish I could just get one little peek and see the 2 of you happy and smiling and then I would go back..I just want to make sure you are both ok and happy..please give us a sign and tell Danny for me to please come to me in my dreams..I am not scared..please I need to see him
Love you zam and watch over mOm and all of us...Marcella is beautiful and soon she will have a lil friend Gabriella Danielle..and Danny will be an uncle.. and we will tell them both about their angels in heaven
Rest in Peace Baby
love ya
maria
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mom posted a condolence
Monday, January 1, 2007
Hey Baby.... Happy New Year...It\\\'s 2007 here...what year is it there???? It\\\'s all new again... the pain, the emptiness, the confusion.... It\\\'s all back again.. I miss you sooooo much...
Please come back.. Just one more day... One more minutee... One more second... Give me one moment to say I love you.... It hurts so much, Zam... Tell me how to cope...
Danny is there with you, But we sit here asking why????? Maria and I are lost... We don\\\'t know where to turn or how to act.... Help us Zam...... Help us understand....
I love you so much.... Mom
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neyy posted a condolence
Monday, December 25, 2006
merry christmas baby!
hope everything is well up there. i misss you so much, i cant even believe this is another christmas without you! they just arent the same anymore! just watch over your family and everyone during the holiday season its never easy without you here. i love you babygirl.
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MARIA posted a condolence
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Hey Beautiful~~~
Merry Christmas Zam... hope you and Danny have the best Christmas ever and enjoy the real meaning of this holiday, spending it with the ones you love.. ALthough we are not with you yet, we will one day but for now be happy and smile with that gorgeous smile of yours and please make sure my son is happy and peaceful with you in heaven this year
I love u, maria
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maria posted a condolence
Saturday, December 9, 2006
Hi Zam~
So how is everything in heaven?? Now you have danny with you and I am sure you are both happy and glad to be together... We all miss you two so much and Mommy and I have a bond that I wish we shared in a different way. We are so much alike and I am so happy to have her in my life now..she is wonderful Zam..so wonderful..
Please look over us all,, and help us find some strength ..
Love you, beautiful angel~
maria
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Friday, December 1, 2006
Bless a Brand New Angel
You were a rose among my thorns
You were the calm in the eye of every storm
Now you're gone, I have no more tears to cry
We never had a chance to say goodbye
Oh, bless a brand new angel
Heaven isn't all that far
Though time came to take you
You're still living in my heart
With a love that's never changing
Please bless a brand new angel
You were my refuge from the rain
When you'd smile
You'd bring summer back again
I'll hold you here, forever in my mind
Till we meet someday on the other side of time
Oh, bless a brand new angel
Heaven isn't all that far
Though time came to take you
You're still living in my heart
With a love that's never changing
Please bless a brand new angel
Without you, the sun will never shine as bright
You're magic touch lit up each corner of my life
With a love that's never changing
Please bless a brand new angel
I'll see you when I get there.....
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aLice posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Zam..
the other day was 4 years fOr u..i cant even believe it still.. i remember when we were little & everyone used to say we looked alike.. & we always used to have so much fun & then i had to go home.. but i just wish that i could have seen u more often and lived closer to yOu..& made soo many memories..but i just will remember the memories we did have on all the holidays.. & i will never forget them.. i met almost all of ur friends.. and they are such good people!.. u were loved zam! u are still talked about every single day.. everyone misses u and loves u so much!.. i came to visit u today .. i cant believe u and danny are right across from eachother.. thats amazing!.. & now use are together and that makes me feel so much better because i know use are having fun and laughing and lo0kin down on us sayin " stop cryinn were havin a ball here".. its just we want use here.. and its not fair that they took use and not us.. why couldnt we all just go together.. the way it was on earth.. but thats just things i wont ever understand.. i just want u to watch over all of us and help ur mom and ur brother they love u so0 much & just want tO hear from yOu in a dream.. can u do that? it means alot..well zam i guess this is the only way i can talk to you.. but it feels good to let u kno.. that i love u and im thinkin about u all the time.. we all be together again one day.. the whole family</3.. like it should be
i love you beautiful Angel.. take care of danny </3 use are both in peace now
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neyy posted a condolence
Saturday, November 25, 2006
hellooo darling.
gosh tomorrow is your anniversary. 4 years..where has the time gone? oh what i would do just to see you again. i miss you tons. i think about you everyday and i hope your watching over me from up there. watch over everyone tomorrow, it's a rough day for all of us, esp. your mom. remind her that you're always there for her. i'll be coming by to visit you tomorrow. keep shining down beautiful. love you!
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maria posted a condolence
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Hi Zam,
Well it is 4 years now since you are gone. I now completly understand your Moms' pain and all of your familys. That aching yearning pain deep inside that never goes away. I know you are happy and at peace and now with Danny too. Please watch over all of us please Zam. And help Mommy through this day, give her some kind of sign Zam, she needs it and deserves it too.
You are the most beautiful angel up there and every day that it is sunny and beautiful I can feel yours and Dannys' smiles looking down. We miss you terribly and take care of each other. We will all be together again one day ..
love u and miss u
maria
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maria posted a condolence
Friday, November 24, 2006
Hi Zam,
I know you must have been so mad at Danny when he showed up and I don't blame you. Help him now for he was in such pain and suffered every day. You now have each other.. Your Mom and I have a bond now, of course I wish it happened another way but we have it and are there for each other just like you and Danny are. Your brother is doing great and I love him so much and you should see your beautiful niece,, she is so much like you..
Take care Angel, look after all of us here. We miss you more than words can ever say ..
Love you Zammy~
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lauren posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
zam i never met u or u never met but u r very pretty i hear a lot about u from fre and i wish i could have met you and ur up there with my mom and danny
b
brandon chirico posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
zam i juss wanted u to know that i didnt really get to know u but i think and i kno that u were a great person.please help danny get into the swing of things up therein heaven.luv yas watch over us u 2
brandon
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Hello My Love..... How are you?? I was thinking about you and just felt the need to write. It's November 22... Tomorrow is Thanksgiving... At this time, back in 2002, you were already gone from me.... You may have still been breathing, but you were down, never to get back up... Sunday is the anniversary of your passing and I'm just not sure I want to go through this again.... I just want to pretend it never happened, and you are away at school or something.. But you'll be back soon.... Any minute, you'll walk in the door and say "Hi Mom, I missed you... How ya been??".... I would give my last breath to hear you say those words.
Every breath still hurts.. Every waking moment is filled with thoughts of you.. every sleepless night is spent wishing I could see you in my dreams...
It's raining outside today.. The weather feels just like my mood... Watch over your brother, Zam... And Marcella, too...Find Danny and give him a hug..He's with you now for eternity and you must protect eachother... As you were in life, so you both will be in death...
I love you... I will see you when I get there....
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat..
Sometimes, I wonder, who you'd be today.....
K
Kelly Todd posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Zam,
Hey babe. I was just looking at all the comments that people have left on here for you. It is amazing that you have been gone for almost four years and you are still on so many people's minds. Your friends and family have continuously wrote to you. This makes me realize one thing: time does NOT make the pain easier. I can not believe that we are so young and have lost so many good people. You, my cousin, tom, and now dan. I am still in total shock. There is not a day that goes by that I dont think about any of you. To this day, four years later, I still can not believe that you are gone. Although I think about you all the time and I always look at your picture thats in my room, I forget that someone as beautiful and wonderful as you is gone. All of the sudden it will hit me and I'm like "wait Zammy, THE Zammy is gone?". It feels like I just found out for the first time again. I will never forget you and I dont think the pain of you leaving will ever subside. I love you Zam, I always have. Even when you were mean to me in Thomas Jefferson haha. You are not alone up there in heaven, and now Dan is up there with you. Take care of each other up there and watch over everyone. Your families and friends need you both so much right now. Please give them strength. I will pray for them. I love you baby girl and I miss you so much. XOXO
Love,
Kelly Todd
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alice posted a condolence
Monday, October 30, 2006
Zam.. i dont even know where to start..i still cant believe ur gone.. and now ur with danny.. i just need to know use are both okay and happy..all this doesnt seem fair or real to me.. and theirs so manu unanswered questions that i dont have.. and prolly wont until i see u again..i had a really weird dream about u the other night and i told ur mom about it.. its so crazy zam..why is it like this? are use happy up their? i know if danny is with u hes happy because he loved u and talked about u all the time.. so0 give him a hug for me and tell him i love him.. and i want both of use to watch over me and our family and dans family and friends..i love u forever and i constantly think about u..i love u angel<3
zam & danny<3 R.I.P
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neyy posted a condolence
Thursday, October 26, 2006
hi baby.
i visited you last night and it was wonderful. whenever i'm not myself, i'm not in a good mood, or when i need to get something off my chest i come to you. it was so nice to talk to you. you made me feel so much better. but gosh i really do you miss you babygirl. it's coming up on 4 years now. where has the time gone? gosh, it seems like yesterday i was with you hanging out. can you believe it? i sure can't. well stay strong up there baby and watch over me. i'll come visit again real soon. i loove you darling<3
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laur posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
hey baby!! i just wanted to tell you how much i miss you and how much i love you. i've come to realize that things will never be the same without you here but i'm also realizing that that's ok because if feeling sad is a way to feel you, then i'll do it forever and ever. i love you always and i'll see you in my dreams<3
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aLice<3 posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Zam.. i just found out about this and that i could write u.. sOo now im gonna write u.. i still cant believe ur not here.. i was at ur house for ur 21st b-day and everyone was talking about u.. and how beautiful and funny u were.. lol .. i wish u were still here.. but i know ill see u in my dreams<3.. i love u & miss yOu.. watch over me and the family.. R.I.P
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judyy posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Zammy.. your so beautifull.. i love you so much and miss you more and more each and every minute of the day..it was your birhtday last week and im sorry i didnt get the chance to get on here and wish you one but i was at your grave and i saw your mom.. she looks really good and she misses you so much! watch down on her.. i cant believe your 21 already .. legal much? lol
well i hope your still celebrating babe<3
i miss you angel
be safe. be care full.keep flying. i love you.
judy
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Alia posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
just wanted to say Happy Birthday. i hope you're celebrating up in heaven girl \=. i want you to know that i think about you often. but then again you probably already know that! love and miss you.
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Drew posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
Happy Birrthhhdayyyy Zammmyyyyy!!!As s0on as I get home from work we're going to visit you bo0! You're always in my thoughts and prayers. Happy Birthday again and we love and miss you so0o much! ... see you in my dreams sponk!
C
Courtney G posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
happy birthday zam...still thinking of you always...
C
Cryssi Dale posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
go shawty its yo birfday!! we gon sip bacardi like its yo birfday! not a sad day today monkey, i'm kinda in a good mood. it would have been your 21st..u prolly wouldn't have been able to handle all the drinks i woulda bought you tonight anyway haha. i know you're partyin like a rockstar up there monkeybutt lookin down laughin sayin BITCHES IM DRINKIN CRYSTALE! haha. i miss you skoot. i love you and i wish you could be here with me to share today. be with your mommy today...she misses you so much.
<3 love love love love love youuuu
DaLeSeR
ps. love you barb!!
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christen posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
Zam,
youre 21 baby!!! Happy Birthday Cuz!! Party hard!! Love You!!!
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fre posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 3, 2006
happy birthday baby....i wish u were still here...u, me n lauren all getting sang to together, and now ur niece......watch over me...i love you...
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Mom posted a condolence
Monday, October 2, 2006
Hey Baby...
Happy Birthday... It's Monday 10/2... Tomorrow you'll be 21.... Or are you still 17??? I'm just not sure.. I miss you so much.. I wish you were here to celebrate your 21st... We would have thrown you a huge party and bought you your first diamond..Now, I just have memories to sustain me...
We're having a Memorial Celebration on Saturday here at the house. I hope all your friends come and share their stories with us. I know Missy will be here. Daniel & Michelle & Andrea L too.... Not sure who else will come. I'd love to see everybody.... The family will be here as well. The only one missing is you......
I love you baby... I miss you so much... Every day, every minute and every second... I wish I could turn back the clock....
Marcella was three yesterday.. We had a good time at her party... Watch over her and Fre.. Keep them safe and be their guardian angel..
All my love from here to there... I'll see you when I get there...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most..
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes I wonder, who you'd be today........
Mom :-
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Dottie posted a condolence
Monday, October 2, 2006
wow less then acouple hours and you will be 21 ...Happy Birthday Babe !!! I wish we were all goin to the bars and havin parties. Dont worry we'll celebrate for you, just like u would want it, Lots of partying haha ! I miss you Zam ...Have a wonderful Birthday !!
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missy posted a condolence
Saturday, September 9, 2006
Hey Zam,
The pain never seems to go away or get easier. just seem to find ways to cope.
I cant wait for the memorial party your mom is having for your 21st! It is going to be a great day. I am looking forward to hearing everyone's stories. I know you will be there laughing at all of us. We miss you. I miss you.
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Elena posted a condolence
Thursday, September 7, 2006
Hey Zam
I was visiting this web site for someone else and thought I would write you a note. You are very missed by your family and friends, Rob and I see Jim out every once in a while, and he always brings a smile to our faces because the memories of you flood in. It's hard to believe that the years have flown by so fast. Your family is setting up a day of remembrance for your 21 birthday so we will fell your presence there.
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fre posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 8, 2006
days go by fast, but never a day without u running through my mind.....missing u tremendously doesn't even come close to it....but everytime i look at my daughter...i am seeing you....i love u....i believe that ur alwayz with me...shit, thats what gets me through half the things i go through..life, or death, or god or any other kind of bullshit will never break the bond we had, the unconditional love we shared, it lives on through me, my memories, my daughter looking at mommy with the joy and love u gave her...the pictures everywhere, and place in my heart thats urs forever...i love u little sister...i'll see u in my dreams
C
Cryssi Daley posted a condolence
Sunday, July 30, 2006
monkey <3
you know, it's funny to think that its been almost 4 years since i've hugged you. if i close my eyes i can still feel your arms around me. i can't explain why you're gone, and i can't explain why it had to be so soon, but i can explain how amazing you were, and i do..to everyone that will listen. your picture is the first thing i see when i wake up and the last thing i see before bed. you are fresh in my mind and fresh in my heart. stay beautiful, stay amazing...stay with me...
<3 dale
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neyy posted a condolence
Monday, July 24, 2006
hey babygirl.
gosh i just got back from Europe a couple of days ago and wow what an amazing place. i went to the Eiffel Tower and over looked on the city of Paris at night and it was so gorgeous. When we went in Paris to shop it really reminded me of you. the city and you would make a perfect couple. you would love it there. i also went to germany, austria, and switzerland and they were all just too beautiful. i went on the top of a glacier in the middle of july and it was snowing! gosh it was crazy. i had the time of my life over there, but you know i thought about you everyday. i have a picture of you in my wallet and all my new friends that i made asked who you were and i told them that you were an amazing girl who left to go on to a better place way too soon. i said a prayer for you and your family in a church over in germany. i have to come visit you soon.. i havent been there in awhile. we need to catch up darling. well i miss you and i'll be thinking of you!
love always!
neyy
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Friday, July 14, 2006
.....The time for concern is over...No longer are we asked how we are doing. Never are the names of our children mentioned to us. A curtain descends. The moment has passed. Lives slip from frequent recall. There are exceptions; close and compassionate friends, sensitive and loving families. Still look. Still ask. Still listen. For most, the drama is over. The spotlight is off. Applause is silent. But for us, the play will never end. The effect on us is timeless. What can be said, you ask? Please say their names to us. Do not tiptoe around one of the greatest events of our lives. Love does not die.
Their names are written on our lives. The sounds of their voices replay within our minds. You feel they are dead. We feel they are of the dead and still they live. They ghostwalk our souls, beckoning in future welcome. You say they were our children. We say they are. Please say their names to us and say their names again.
It hurts to bury their names in silence. What they were in flesh is no longer with us. What they are in spirit stirs within us always. They are part of the past, but they are a part of our now. They are our hope for the future. You say not to remind us. How little you understand we cannot forget. We would not if we could. We understand you, but feel pain in being forced to do so. We forgive you, because you cannot know. And, we would forgive you anyway. We accept how you see us, but understand that you see us not at all. We strive not to judge you, for yesterday we were like you. We love you, will make no exceptions towards you. But we wish you could understand that we dwell both in flesh and in spirit. The mystery is that you do, too, but know it not. We do not ask you to walk this road. The ascent is steep and the burden heavy. We walk it not by choice. We would rather walk with them in flesh, looking not to spirit roads beyond. We are what we have to be. What we have lost, you cannot feel. What we have gained, you cannot see. Please say their names, for they are alive in us.
We will meet them again, although in many ways we've never parted. They and their lives play light songs on our minds, sunrise and sunset on our dreams. They are real and in shadow, they were and they are. So, please say their names to us and say their names again. They are our children, and we love them as we always did. Say their names!
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Hi Baby.....
How are you??? I have been thinking about you alot the last few days.... Not that that is unusual for me, I always think about you!! It's just that the last few days have been harder than usual... I'm not sure if it's cause I'm tired of dealin' or tired of feelin'.... I'm just tired...
I spent some time with you last night. I have to get back there with some gardening tools... Your garden is a mess!! I promise to do that this weekend... We can chat for awhile, too....
We all went to Disney last week. It was wonderful spending time with your brother in a relaxing place. He never seems to relax anymore.. Always working hard and stressed out.. Please pray that things get easier for him... Marcella had a blast.. We saw Mickey and the gang, went on a Safari... Swam in the pool for days... She got soooo dark... Just like you and Fre.. She is "Juana La Cubana" just like you!! Chrissie came too... She was a little stressed out after the long drive, but I think she had a good time....I wish you were there!
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy coat.. Sometimes I wonder....who you'd be today???
I love you with all my heart....
All my love forever!!
Momma Duke
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Laur posted a condolence
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
it's been a while but i miss you everyday baby. i wish you were here to meet vinnie, you would just love him. he looks just like me: i love you forever and i'll see u in my dreams...
j
judyy posted a condolence
Sunday, June 11, 2006
hey baby.. i miss you so much.. there arent even enough words that i can say to express that..
your the first thing i think about when i get up in the morning and the last thing i think about before i go to sleep at night..
its been a while since i saw you..
ill be going up to visit real soon.. i promise..
i just want you to know that i love you and imiss you like crazy..
look over me babe
keep an eye on my cousin for me will you<3 thanks
keep on saving that spot for me<3
ill be seeing you
S
Stephie posted a condolence
Monday, June 5, 2006
Hi baby!!!!
Sooo I was just thinkin about you and wanted to tell you that I miss you, but I'm sure you already know that boo boo. I wish you could come visit me soon -- everyone says they dream about you or talk to you and I haven't seen you in my dreams for a while now. Come vist me baby I'll take you to south beach or ft. lauderdale... we'll go out on a date- it's summertime and I'm lonely- BAD FOR SUMMER SCHOOL!!! Any hoot I love you ma and miss you with my whole heart!! Tell your fam I said hello and I give my love!
Ur Always in my Heart
Stephie
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Dottie posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Hey hunnie , How is everything ? It's been awhile..too long actually. I always come on but haven't written to u in awhile, its kinda like u always wanna say the right thing but u have no idea what that is ! I miss you tho zam ...everyone does. Everyone's so much older now, its crazy . I'll be 21 in less than a month...I feel so old haha Just wish u were here still, we could all be partying legally soon haha ! I love u n Miss u <3
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neyy posted a condolence
Monday, May 1, 2006
hey babe.
just was thinking about you today. it's so gorgeous out and it has been for the past couple of days and i just think about you when its like that. it's like your blessing us from up above and i appreciate it very much. just wait for me up there babe. i miss you.
love always,
neyy
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Hello My Love.....
How are you on this beautiful day? The sun is shining and I was thinking about you, as always. I wonder what you'd be doing today...
I miss you, baby... I miss you like crazy... Marcella wore you boxer shorts the other day with the clouds on them.... I had to wash them cause she peed in them.... It was so wierd to have your cloths in the laundry....She reminds me of you more and more every time I see her... Nothing can ever replace you in my heart, but I just love her so much... Help Fre stay strong... You know what I'm talking about..
I'll see you when I get there...
Love, Momma Duke
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Missy posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 5, 2006
I was just thinking about you and wanted to say Hi. I think of you often and cant wait to see you again. Miss you always
Missy
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gia posted a condolence
Sunday, April 2, 2006
thanks for hanging out today. we had a blast. xoxoxoxoxo
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katie posted a condolence
Saturday, April 1, 2006
heyy zam!!
i miss u sooo much babe, like, you have no idea. but thanx for always coming into my dreams..it soo nice to see ure b-e-auutiful face again.
I love you soo much and i cant wait till I see u again
Love, katie x0x0x0x0x
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neyyx4 posted a condolence
Sunday, February 12, 2006
hey beautiful.
just want to let you know that today it snowed about 11 inches and it's crazy. i've been thinking about you alot lately like i usually do. i miss you so much, alot of things have been happening in my life just keep me strong and help me get through them babe. thanks so much!
love you sweetie<3
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Andrea posted a condolence
Friday, February 3, 2006
To the most beautiful girl ive ever known,
Hello Zam. .im sure u already know that im stayin in ur moms shore house this summer i kno ur most likely shaking ur head no,no,no haha but i promise i will be on my best behavior and wont do anything you wouldnt do. .im not sure if thats promising haha but you know me ill hold the house down for you. .i was in your room last week not a thing has changed i love being in your house bc its the closest ive felt to you in awhile i visit u all the time and im sure you know that. For the first time last night i realized how much you looked like ur mom i can still see you in her eyes. .not a day goes by that i dont think about you..n im makin sure u live on in my heart..i know your watching over me and at least i can say i have the prettiest and funniest angel in heaven watching over me. .see even in heaven u can still make people jealous of the great girl u really are. im not sure if i ever got to tell you when we were together all the time how much u really meant to me and lookin back on that now i wish i would have. .even though deep down i know that you knew it. .i was very lucky to have even met sumone as amazing as you in my life not alot of people can say that they have really met a legand. .i love you more then words zammy. .n i miss u more everyday. .im actually goin to visit you now and bring you sum nice flowers to hook u up on this beautiful day. .god bless you
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Mal posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Hi beautiful.....just thinkin about you, as usual, and wondering where you would be right now if you hadn't been taken away from us. A lot of things have happened since you've been gone and I can't help but think that you had a hand in many of the miracles that one of our very good friends endured. I wanna thank you for that. We especially her need you more than ever right now so please look over her and her family. Thanks babe and I'll see you in my dreams....Love and miss you more each day....
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neyy posted a condolence
Monday, January 16, 2006
zam.
gosh i miss you so much. i think about you everyday && everynight right before i go to bed. i carry a picture of you in my wallet everywhere i go, so when im disappointed or upset i know i can take out your picture and look at you && your picture keeps me going. just wanted to say hello and ask how you're doing up there. well until we meet again babe.
i love you.
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Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Hello My Love.....
It's been awhile since I wrote. I sign on every day to read who has visited..... Their words are comforting...
I have barely made it through the 4th holiday season without you. For some odd reason, this one seemed to be harder...or more confusing....or more lonely..... Everyone's life is going forward... Families are growing, people are moving on, the sun keeps rising.... All of these things make me miss you more and more. I actually feel a little jealous when people I know pass on. It's almost like...... when is it my turn so I can see my baby again???
Sunny days seem to hurt the most... I wear the pain like a heavy shit... Who would you be today??
I'll see you when I get there....
Love, Mom
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Alia Fabrico posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Just wanted to let you and everyone reading this know that I've been thinking about you. Everytime I hear or see Selena or Jennifer Lopez.. I think back to 8th grade when you would ask everyone "who do i look like? and you better say jennifer lopez!" haha you were obsessed! anyway, i love and miss you girl. xoxo
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marian posted a condolence
Friday, January 6, 2006
Hi Zam...just thinking of you, as I usually do every day...I miss you today, as I usually do every day...I stare at your pictures all day at work and all night at home and I still wonder why you're there and not here. Another year has gone by...another year closer to seeing you again. I miss you so much... hugs and more hugs from here to there. XOXOXOXOXO aunt mar
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Missy posted a condolence
Saturday, December 24, 2005
MERRY CHRISTMAS Zam!!!! I miss you so much! Love you!!
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, November 27, 2005
hello darling.
3 years; wow i can't believe it. so i went to see you yesterday && it was wonderful.. no one was around just me && you; just like old times. i miss you.
love,
neyy
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Missy posted a condolence
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Can't believe that three years has gone by. Its just not fair. Cant wait to see you again. Watch over all of us.
Love you girl
Missy
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christen posted a condolence
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Hi Beautiful,
I just want to say Happy Turkey Day!! Im sure there is an all u can eat broccoli rabe feast up there!! Wish u were here.
I LOVE YOU,
Dit
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Hi Zam. It's very hard to believe that this week, 3 years ago, we were waiting for you to wake up at the hospital. Every little movement was hope, hope that you would come through, hope that you would wake up. hope that we would wake up... from the worst nightmare anyone could ever have. hope that we could have just one wish come true, hope that God would take me instead of you. I love you Zam and miss you from here to eternity. Giant hugs to you always. Love aunt mar.
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neyy posted a condolence
Friday, November 4, 2005
hey lovely.
wow i was just listening to that song, it's quite amazing! here's one that your mom will love:
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes
-Martina McBride.
i love you babe, never forget that.
always thinking of you!
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Missy posted a condolence
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.
But I wonder who you'd be today.
-Kenny Chesney
Zam,
It was so wierd the first time i ever heard this song was on your birthday after i left your stone with alfredo. I knew it was a sign. Miss you forever and always.
Love you
missy
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gia posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
zam, that was sooooooooooo weird. i dont get it. xoxoxoxo
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Christen Romeo posted a condolence
Thursday, October 6, 2005
Hey Mama,
I just want you to know that you are forever on my mind, and I love you so much. Thank you for the lady bug, it ment so much.
Dit
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Jen posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
Happy Birthday Zam. You are in my thoughts almost every second of every one of my days. I am wishing that you were here so that our family could celebrate your birthday w/ you. I am wishing that you are happy and at peace being an Angel in heaven. I am wishing that when I go to sleep tonight, I will see your beautiful face and smile in my dreams. Time does not seem to be healing my sadness and my feelings of missing you so so so very much, but I am wishing that you are the first one I see when its my turn to go to heaven. I love you and miss you w/ my whole heart and soul. Love Jen
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Mal posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
"I'm here without you baby....but you're still on my lonely mind..."
Happy Birthday babe! Love you and miss you more each day...
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Drew posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
Happy Birthday Zammy! We miss you, love you, and wish you a happy birthday sponkkkkk!!!! We'll see you in our dreams baby!
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
Hello My Love..... Happy Birthday...
You are 20...Or are you still 17???
I spent the afternoon with you... Couldn't really be up for seeing any one. Maybe it's selfish of me to feel this way....I just wanted to be alone with my thoughts and my pain... I miss you more than words can say and I wish more than anything that you were still here..
Happy Birthday Baby...
I will see you when I get there
Love, Mom
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christen posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
Hia Pal,
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to Zam.... Happy Birthday to you!!! I love you cuz.
Dit
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Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
thinking of you everyday.....we'll never forget....happy birthday.
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Dottie posted a condolence
Monday, October 3, 2005
Hey Girl !! Happy Birthday !!! I wish u were here with us celebrating your birthday...U know how much fun we would have haha ! I miss you so much n hope you have a wonderful birthday ! Love You
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neyy posted a condolence
Friday, September 30, 2005
heyy darling.
your birthday is on monday, && im excited to go to your stone && just sit there and think about you forever.
i<3you
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christen posted a condolence
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
GOD HAS A REASON???
What would be better than having you here with us?
To share your beautiful everything with people you love and trust.
Knowing that youre gone only gets harder to accept,
I miss having someone to trust, and having someone to protect.
I miss spending time with you and all the good talks,
I miss having you call me for advice, I miss all the long walks.
We were so close that we would cuddle in our sleep,
Id wake up in the middle of the night freezing, and yould have stolen the whole sheet.
You always made me laugh even when I was down,
You made it seem like there was never a good enough reason to frown.
You are the most beautiful person that I will ever meet,
I can only pray you will continue to visit me while I sleep.
I Love You,
Dit
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christen posted a condolence
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Hey cuz,
I feel like the more time goes by, the harder it is to deal without you. Its not getting "easier" to accept like some people seem to believe. I get sad, mad, confused and tired of trying to understand, or accept a reason. Its so hard to be together with family without you there because we were always by eachothers side. you still visis me in my dreams, and dont get me wrong, Im so greatful for that. But Id be much more happy to wake up from this ongoing nightmare, and have you here again. You are something so special and everyone that knows you can agree to that. We all miss you so much, and you will never be forgotten. I Love you so much, see you in my dreams. Dit
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neyy posted a condolence
Friday, September 16, 2005
heeyy babe.
yeahhh its september and your birthday is coming up so fast. && of course it's school time && wow you would or already have started college by now. it's amazing how fast the time as gone. i have a volleyball game on your birthday && i'll be sure to win for you, just because your all i think about mostly. i can't wait till we see each other again. look over me && help me babe. always thinking of you.
¢¾ neyy
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
I DO NOT NEED A SPECIAL DAY
I do not need a special day to bring you to my mind.
The days that I don't think of you are very hard to find.
Each morning when I awake, I know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache as I try to carry on.
My heart still aches with sadness and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.
My thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill.
In life I loved you dearly; in death I love you still.
There will always be heartache, and often a silent tear.
But always precious memories of the days when you were here.
If tears could build a staircase and memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
I hold you close within my heart; and there you will remain,
To walk with me throughout my life until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same,
But as GOD calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Waves
Tightness in my chest,
Sweat on my palms,
Tears in my throat,
Frustration.
Stop, Stop, Stop!
I?m hopeless, helpless, lifeless.
My heart is stolen.
No control,
Waves of sorrow,
Waves of madness,
Waves of guilt,
Waves of death.
No Control.
Loneliness.
My body is tired, my mind is gone
It takes time they say?
It takes forever?
My flesh tingles
This pain does not go away.
Let me feel something else
Not this.
I?m so sorry.
The world is still turning.
Mine isn?t.
People smile and laugh.
I do not.
Why did this happen?
My daughter,
My angel.
You are gone.
It takes time they say?
It will take forever?
S
Stephie posted a condolence
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Zam...
I'm sure you alreay know but Ashley Burns from East Elite all stars died at practice a few days ago... I just wanted to tell you to please watch over her family and keep Ashley company up there...
I have a surprise for you... If you had gone to Louisville for school, i'd be coming to see you On october 1st!! How cool is that our football teams would be playing each other!! And right on my bday and urs two days later. I can't believe you are gonna be the big 2-0 this year! anyways i miss you and i cried when i heard the news about ashley, it just made me miss you even more. I love you and miss you forever please watch over me and send thepia some love and happiness...i miss her too
<3 always Steph
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Saturday, August 6, 2005
Hi my Zam: I think of you every single day and miss you so much. I know you are here in spirit because we all feel your presence in so many different ways. When I see a pretty flower I think of you. When I see a pretty butterfly, I think of you. When I feel the warm sun shine, I think of you. When I see a pretty painting, I think of you. When I see a cute little buggy, I think of you.... Your beauty and love surrounds all of us and I thank you for that. You have given us many many beautiful memories that all of hang on to and cherish, until of course,we meet again and begin our journey of everlasting life together and forever, where no one will separate us again. I love you with all my heart. XOXO
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Christen posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 2, 2005
Hey Beautiful,
Im having a hard time tonight because of a few things, and you not being here is one of them. Please guide me through them as you have been, and give me strength. I Love you so much Zam, I need you........
Dit
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Missy posted a condolence
Friday, July 29, 2005
Hey Zam,
I was just thinking about you and wanted to say hi! I miss you so much and cant wait to see you again. I just wish i could share so many things with you. I know you are doing great as always but everyone misses you. I guess i have no complaints in my life. School is going really well and my summer officially starts next thursday...I cant wait. I am starting nursing school in the fall and i am really excited but nervous. Everyone tells me how hard its going to be.
I am hoping that me and jim can get together with your mom soon. I miss you Zam and can't wait to see you again.
Love you,
Missy
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Dave posted a condolence
Friday, July 29, 2005
Hey baby,
You must be bopping around down here today because for some reason we're all drawn to say hello.
Busy day for missing, loving, remembering. Just caught myself leaning back in my chair thinking of you on the family cruise.
It was formal night, we were at the top of the main staircase, the dining room was near full of passengers talking. You started down the staircase and the noise level dropped, you're mom and I just looked at each other. A stanger stops you on the way to our table and says "I'll see you on the cover of Vogue some day". I remember it like yesterday. My god, such a presence you were.
Miss you honey.
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Friday, July 29, 2005
Hello my love:
I see so many names here today. There must be something amiss for so many of us to be thinking of you at the same time. I think I know what it is and I am so very sorry you are not here to share our news.
So they say it gets easier. Time heals all wounds. How much time? How many hours, days, months, years? I think they are all lying to me. I miss you more than ever. The wounds are still fresh and the pain has not diminshed. I find ways to add normality to my life but usually, it just covers up the truth. We are all doing ok here but, every time something happens in the family, good or bad, it makes your absense that much harder.
I'm so happy for Lauren & Vince. What a wonderful gift for them and for us all to share. This will be a happy time for them. Watch over her and protect her. I'm sure she is afraid. There is no other love in the world than the love of a Mother for her child. Sweet joy and bitter-sweet pain......
I love you my daughter. I will see you when I get there.
Mom
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Elena posted a condolence
Friday, July 29, 2005
Hey Zam
Rob and I were just thinking of you, I know Rob is really bad at writting but at least I can relay his messages. Your whole family really misses you and you are greatly missed.
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Gia posted a condolence
Friday, July 8, 2005
Everything happens so fast and only you know the plan...I know you're up there laughing at/with us and how clueless we are.
I know you're there with us whenever we need you...
xoxo
C
Christen posted a condolence
Friday, July 8, 2005
Hey Baby Cakes,
Whats shakin? You were in my dream again last night. I still cant put things in order, or make any sense of it, but hey, I'm not complaining. Im just greatful I can still see your beautiful face.
I Love you so much Zam, thanks for keeping in touch. Miss you, Love you, always thinking of you.
Christen
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neyy posted a condolence
Tuesday, July 5, 2005
heyyy babydoll <3 it was just the 4th of july weekend and i was just thinking about you alot .. i hope you were watching me yesterday i was on TV for the ABC parade and i wish you were here so i could share the exictement i had with you .. hows everything going up there ? down here everythings been ok i guess .. its so hard without you babe .. i miss you soo much and i cant wait to see you again !
.. once upon a year gone by she saw herself give in everytime she closed her eyes .. she saw where she could have been paradise <3
i lovee youu babydoll
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Hey My Love:
How are you? Everything is about the same here. I've found a new kind of "normal". Not nearly as comforting as my old "normal" but I guess I'm dealing.....
We were all sitting on the beach on Sunday yes, Bugintine and Chrissie started doing flips and back hand springs. From behind, she looks just like you. As a matter of fact, from the front she looks like you too. It was a good day. I know if you were still alive, you might like hanging out with us on the beach now. I know you hated it when I use to drag you there and you didn't want to go. But now, you would have been almost 20 years old and you might have felt differently about "adults". I know that, for awhile, all teens want to be away from their parents. But I also know that, eventually, they always come back. You were just on your way back to me Zam. Just to the point where we could start hanging out again, and then you left. Actually, in reality, you were taken away. Cause I know you didn't want to leave. I know, if given a choice, you'd still be here with us. Always know that, if I had a choice, I'd have gone in your stead. Then you could be living the life you were meant to live & I could be watching over you!! Funny how a slight change in fate could right all wrongs....
Normal.....I'm still trying to define it..... i'll see you when I get there....
I love you!
C
Christen posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Who would have thought that thinking about someone you love can bring both a smile to your face, and a hole to your heart?
Nobody ever thinks how life would be without the people they love, untill someone suddenly gets stolen away for no good reason.
I stare at the sky, both day & night,
at times I feel comfort,& at times nothing is right.
Youre not really gone, its all just a bad dream.
But the harder I try to wake myself up, the harder it seems.
Why was it you that was taken away
Instead of one of theese scumballs I see on the news everyday?
You are too big a part of soo many lives, I miss your company, I miss your humor, I miss all the good times.
You are always on my mind Zam,& you know that its true,
Thank you for still putting a smile on my face when Im down,
thanks for all you still do.
I Love You
Dit
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Christen posted a condolence
Monday, June 20, 2005
Hey gal,
Hows things up there? Here... well s.o.s different day, as Im sure you know.
Still missin ya, Still lovin ya, always thinkin of ya.
I Love you toots
Dit
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Christen posted a condolence
Tuesday, June 7, 2005
Hey Toots,
I wanted to go to the beach the other day because I took the day off and it was beautiful out, but I didnt have anyone to call because everyone was at work. I kept thinking about all the fun times weve had, even when we were bored we found some kind of way to entertain ourselves. Everytime Im down about something I think of you, and all the crazy times I shared with you, and it puts a smile on my face. Itll never be the same without you, and I will never rather anyone elses company over yours. Please continue doing whatever it is youre doing to keep me sain. Ilove you cuz.
Dit
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judy posted a condolence
Monday, May 30, 2005
Zammy , ever since you left my lifes been crashing down. i cant believe that your gone and there was nothing that we could do about it, besides watch our beautiful angel go to heaven. i hope your having "the time of your life " up there. theres not a day , a minute, a second, that im not thinking about you. There was so many times in my life that i was about to be with you, but something pulled me back and im thinking it was you and my uncle. i just wish he woulda took me instead of you. I hope your watching down on all of us . Your the big sister that i never had. you were always there when i needed you. your smile , your personality, You , will always be remembered ! Its nice to see how many people still sign your book, knowing that you have this many people caring about you really means somethingg.
i love you so much zammy! your always on my mind and you always will be.
"I hope your flying high"
Ill see you soon - Judy
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laur posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
i cant even begin to explain how much i miss you and how none of our lives are going to be the same, no matter how much we pretend. i know u are in a much better place than i could ever imagine, i just wish i could be there with you.. all of us together again...they way we should. i also know how u dont like big fusses over you so i try to be strong but i honestly still cant believe any of this is true. our family is not complete without you.. we need ALL of us~i love you always and forever and ever~so now i lay me down to sleep... i pray the lord YOUR soul to keep.. i love you zam~until then baby~
K
Katie G. posted a condolence
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
Hey Zam
I was just lookin at pictures of u and it made me think of how much I miss seeing you. hope your doinn okay up there.and I miss ya like crazy!!!
xoxLOVE YA SOO MUCHx0x0
M
Missy posted a condolence
Monday, May 23, 2005
Hey Zam,
I have been thinking about you as usual but a lot more lately. I met a lot of your friends the other night. It was really awesome to hang out with people that you used to spend your time with. I showed them my tattoo that we designed together. It was just neat to have something in common with these guys! I told Britt that if you were still here with us that I would have made you come with me. We would have had such an awesome time. I miss you so much and your beautiful personality. I love you forever and a day. Can't wait to see you again.
Love forever
Missy
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Dale posted a condolence
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Hey Monkey Butt...its been awhile since i've been on here. i love to see that people still write. its kinda like our way of letting ourselves know that you are still here. i feel you with me a lot. especially lately. last night i met this girl and she saw a picture of you in my wallet and she was telling me how beautiful you are, and i got a huge grin on my face and i said yes she is, she's the most beautiful angel. i talked about you for like an hour. i just wanted this girl to know how amazing you are. no words could ever explain. these wounds will never heal, but knowing that you are here keeping me safe it makes each day easier to get through. i love you so much zambolina. stay with me. xox
<3 your Dale
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Dottie posted a condolence
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Hey Beautiful...
How ya doin ?? Everything's pretty crazy down here, haha as usual! Summer's almost here...I can't believe it Zam. It's been so long since I got to talk to you, hug you n even yell at u haha ! I miss the old days, I don wanna grow up ! I wan you back here with us, like everything used to be. I know your around cause I keep having all these dreams bout u Zam...there soo real, I wish. Memorial Day weekend is comin up reall sooon, We would've had so much fun ! Me, Joanna, and Mal came to visit u the other day..It was Mal's birthday! Even by lookin at ur grave Zam you can tell how loved u were n forever will be.
I miss you so much Zam! I wish I could just have one more time to talk to you n touch you...Love you Babygirl !
I'll see ya when I get there...
Love Forever n Ever,
HotDot
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mom posted a condolence
Friday, May 13, 2005
Hey Baby....
It Friday the 13th...Not much different than any other day. Bad luck does not scare me anymore. Nothing could ever be worse than losing you. I'd accept a lifetime of bad luck to get you back... Dreams!!
I have a favor to ask. I know that you watch over us and protect us. There have been so many times when we could have been hurt and then something tells me you were watching out and protecting us all of us.. Please keep a special eye on your brother. I worry so much when he gets sick. He needs your strength, Zam.. Don't let anything happen to him while I'm away..
I will sign off for now.... I love you with all my heart and sole. I miss you every second of every minute... I will see you when I get there!
Mom
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Aunt Donna posted a condolence
Saturday, May 7, 2005
Dear Zammy,
I was thinking of you today, as I do most days, and so I just thought I'd say hi, and send you this little poem.
There will always be this heartache
and often a silent tear. We will cherish those precious memories of the days when you were here.
Remembering you is easy, we do it every day.
But missing you is a heartache that never goes away...I Love You Angel!!! Aunt Donna
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Anonymous posted a condolence
Thursday, May 5, 2005
God took you away.
It doesn't seem fair,
but in the back of my mind,
you will always be there.
You were a close friend,
and our paths did cross,
now your absence in this world,
is to me a great loss.
You were too young to die, and
too innocent to feel that pain.
Only heaven benefits,
because you it has now gained.
I seem to think of you a little more
with each passing day,
and your strength is something I won't forget,
you have changed me in a way.
I wish for you eternal peace;
that's what you deserve my friend.
I hope I lead my life well enough
to meet up with you in the end.
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mom posted a condolence
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Hey Baby...
I love you.....
I miss you.....
I will see you when I get there...
The wounds are still fresh and the pain is still real....
I long to kiss and hold you with all that I feel...
I'm alone with this pain, I'm alone and afraid.....
I want you to be part of this life that we've made.....
So much has happened, so much has changed.....
Did God have a plan when our lives rearranged?
I wish I could see your sweet, smiling eyes....
I scream silently at God who hears not my crys....
Be at peace, my angel, I will be with you soon.....
Then forever will last like the stars and the moon....
What a glorious day for you and I to share....
For now, I must tend to my destiny, and I will see you when I get there....
Kisses & hugs..... Mom
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Dottie posted a condolence
Monday, April 18, 2005
Hey Zam...how ya doin?? I been thinkin about you alot lately..Everyone miss es you so much. Summers comin up soon, I can't wait for the nice weather!! I was looking through all my pictues the other day from when we younger...they look so funny! Love you Zam....
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laur posted a condolence
Friday, April 15, 2005
I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU~ I WILL SEE U IN MY DREAMS
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Christen posted a condolence
Friday, April 15, 2005
Zam,
I just want to thank you for the strength you have given me to feel in my heart, you are at peace...though I would much rather have you here. I miss being able to call you to tell you my problems, and being able to listen to yours. I dream about you often and wake up not really being able to make any sense of it, but feel at ease knowing that you are in one way or another keeping in touch. I miss you physically being at my side at family functions, but at the same time, appreciate that I am able to feel youre there. I went to visit you a few days ago and asked you to give me a sign... seconds later, two birds flew into the tree next to me and it put a smile on my face. Thank you for watching over Buddy when he needed you, please continue on living through us all........
I will forever love and miss you untill we meet again.
Christen Dit
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Dave posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Hey baby,
Been thinking about you alot lately. Much of the family was over for Easter Sunday, our thoughts and love for you are as strong as ever.
Had to write to tell you, even now you still bring a smile to my face. After more then two years, I'm still hearing stories about you that make me shake my head. How could I not see that? Blinded by love.
All my heart.
S
Stephie posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Hi Baby
I miss you... I miss cheering with you, I miss your mommy. I saw her over christmas. Missy went with me and we found this video of you when you were like 8. You and some friends had set up a video camera and just dance and sang to the grease soundtrack. O man we were cracking up. I couldn;t help saying that shes right there and i cant hug her. I can't hug her. I don't understand and i'm angry. Why you? You were such a great person to everyone you loved down here. You made a difference in peoples lives <especially mine. I miss you and I think of you everyday.
Spirit Explosion
Red White Blue
Rock'n your world
In 2002
Always Champions
Love you and Miss you with all my Heart,
Stephie
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Neyy posted a condolence
Friday, February 18, 2005
heyy babyy!
here i am checking up on youu .. i still cant believe your gone and i think about you all the time and all the fun times we had and i wish we still could have those times but i al l have is the memories of the old times - i still wish you were here enjoying life like you should be doing instead of watching down on me from heaven <3
the poem i wrote for you i put it on a site and then emailed me back and said i made it to their finals in orlando .. i was going to read the poem in front of millions of people but i couldnt raise the money to go but i still dedicated it to you and it will be in a book for people to buy down there and everyone will know that the poem was for you and only you babygirl!
remember open your wings baby and fly fly away <3 your my angel in the sky but i still have to wonder why
love you always
neyyner \=
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Hey Baby:
Signed on to see who has visited. It's nice to know how many people still think of you often. Dara and Chrissy stoped over the other day. So did Bucci. I haven't seen Missy in awhile and I miss her. They are really the only ones I've seen since you left. I miss all your crazy friends too. Funny how life just moves on, no matter how much we don't want it to.
We are all hanging in there. We miss you every minute of every day. There are so many things I want to share with you but I can't. It's just not fair. I often wonder if you look different, or did your beauty and youth stay the same? I wish I could see your face one more time........I love you, Zam!
Momma Duke
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Judy Cristelli posted a condolence
Friday, February 11, 2005
Zammyy, Heyy babee. i cantt even believe itt. i still dont. i just wish you were still here. i guess it just hasnt hit me yet that i lost my best friend. Zammy you were always so beautifull and you always had a smile on your facee! i just miss you comming over to hang out with my brother and i remember saying to my selff god i wish i was just like her.
It dont feel reall, why did god have to takkke you, i say that often. Why couldnt it be me? You werent meant to leave us. I guess its what god wanted though. he wanted to break our hearts, make us cry, and make us feel pain. and boy did he do all of that! .. i hope your doing okay . I hope your wattching down on all of us!
I think about you every single minute of every single day. sometimes i even look at some people.. some of my friends that knew you very well and i see youu i dont know why i just doo. i love you babygirl.! i miss you sooo much!
A
Anonymous posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 8, 2005
Hey Zam,
I'm at school doing homework and I am interrupted by thoughts of you. I miss you more and more each day, I just wish you were here to go through all of these new experiences with us. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and all the great times we all had together. I miss your laugh, your radiant smile, and your spirit and thrill for life. Sometimes when I'm sitting in my room, I look up at your picture and just wonder, "How could we have been so lucky to know such a beautiful, wonderful person?" I thank God every day for having the opportunity to spend my middle school and high school years with you by my side.
A lot of crazy stuff has been going on around here, but if I know you, you are just looking down on us with your beautiful brown eyes and smiling at us, because you know that everything will be ok in the end. Cause if it's not ok...then it's not the end. That's what I love about you...you always seem bring light to a difficult situation. Well darling I must be going to class now but I will see you in my dreams. Rest in peace angel.
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missy posted a condolence
Sunday, February 6, 2005
Hey Zam,
It's SuperBowl Sunday and you are on my mind as always. I am wondering what you are doing and if you were still here what you would be doing for the game? The Eagles finally made it to the super bowl and everyone is so excited. Things in Philly are going to be crazy and they have been for the past week.
Spirit Explosion is in dallas this weekend and we are all hoping for jackets!! I know they can do it if they stick their routine. Remember when we won jackets...even though they weren't leather like the NCA ones, we were all so proud to wear them! That was the best weekend of my life! I watched the tape of our performance when i visited your mom and you were so awesome. Such an attention grabber. I miss you always and how things used to be with you here. Love forever.
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HotDot posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Hey Zammy....
I had the weirdest dream the ther night but it was so real! We were all back in high school ready to be done, and there you were! You were alive and with all of us. It was so real Zam! I wish when I woke up it was still real, I wish! Just wanted to say hello....how ya doin? JJust waitin til the day my dream comes true. Love you
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Hello my angel...
I was thinking about you as always and wanted to tell you that I love you. I miss you so very much and the emptiness of losing you will never be filled. Take care of you and watch over us. I will see you again soon.
Mom
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, December 26, 2004
merry christmas sweetie<3 i know im a day late im sorry! i miss you and i hope heavens been good to you babydoll.
love always
neyyner x0o
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Mal posted a condolence
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Merry Christmas babe!! I love you and miss you more each day....Rest in peace angel.....
C
Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Merry Christmas Zam! You will forever be missed. May God be with your family and give them the strength to get by. Love you!
D
Dottie posted a condolence
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Hey Zam! How ya doin? It's almost Christmas...I can't believe it. The time has been going by so fast lately. Tomorrow will be Christmas Eve and I haven't even finished my shopping yet, I hate it. Well dear...I'm going to bed now. I miss you soo much & I love you. Sweet dreams angel
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, December 12, 2004
heyy babyydoll<3
hows everything going up there? its been rough down here the past couple of months i mean loosing ian in october - your 2year anniversery in november - and finally loosing another close friend to my heart sam pileggi in december! i just hope your all having fun up there and you have to help sam and ian since they are new at this and your a pro and i know you zam and youll help anyway you can<3
ive been thinking about you alot lately since school is becoming harder and the only thing that seems to calm me down and get everything off of my mind is looking up and thinking of you .. talking to you and i swear i can hear you talking back its great! just keep watching down on me and your family and friends through this 2nd holiday season without you .. its gonna be another hard one but we`ll pull through - and once again i have to watch our movie "christmas shoes" alone but i really wont be alone because youll be right there with me in spirit*
i love you babe
forever loved and missed
<3 your neyyner
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Hot Dot posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 1, 2004
Hey Beautiful...How are you? I hope your doin ok up there. Everyone's crazy as usual down here. So, 2 years...I can't believe it. Sometimes I still forget that it's true, that it really did happen. I always think that one time, I'm gonna turn around and your going to be standing there, but your not, you never will be and I can't believe it! All the good times we had...we were crazy when we were kids.
Everyone loves you so much Zam! We talk about you everyday to keep you alive. No one will ever forget. I wish I could go back in time and make it all better, everyone does. Everyone has their own memories and stories with you that they share...I love you Zam! I go to see you atleast once a week but I've been real busy with school and work. Me and Mal went on the 26th and put big gift bows on your stone but I'm sure they blew off by now...this wind is crazy!
I miss you so much...we all are wishing you are still here. The holidays are going to be hard for everyone, watch over us. Look out for your mom,Dave, and Fredo because it will be the hardest for them, Be with them Zam! I love you so much and can't wait til the day we met again !!
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DaLe posted a condolence
Monday, November 29, 2004
hey Monkey..it took me a couple days to be able to get on here but i'm here now. 2 years..2 long. i woke up on Friday and the first thing i thought was 2 years. they told us all that time heals all pain. but the wound is still fresh and the tears still come at night. songs constantly remind me of you and sometimes i can picture you jammin to them in my car lol. it kills me everytime i visit your grave and put flowers there...bc thats the only way that i can be near you ever again. i'll never hug you or smell your hair. you were priceless zammy baby..and i'd give my own life just to get you back for your mother and fredo and everyone else who misses you so much. i love you i will always love you...
i hope all is well in heaven
bc its shot to hell down here
i hope i find you in heaven
bc im so lost without you down here
<3 DaLe
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neyyner posted a condolence
Friday, November 26, 2004
heyy babyydoll<3
2 yearss 2day .. damn time flies by soo much .. we all miss you soo much down here .. today im qonna qo visit you at the cemetary and i hope your there looking down on me and watching but i`ll talk to you later babyqirl<3
i miss youu and remember
i know your my angel in the sky
but i still have to wonder why
<3 yourr neyyner x0o
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Brittany posted a condolence
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Heyy Zammy...
Happy Thanksgiving!! Wish you were here with us...WOW! Tomorrow is 2 years since u went away. We all miss you and can't wait to see you again. I'm going to your grave tomorrow. I know alot of people are going to be there. Things just aren't the same without you here. Love you girl...<3 Brittany
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Liz posted a condolence
Thursday, November 25, 2004
Zammy* babe its comming up on two years with out you! i miss you so much!! i cant wait untill the day i get to see you again...watch down on us and give us all strength to make it through each and everyday without you.. love you so much babydoll and missing you more and more each day
rest in peace baby
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Dave posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Hey honey,
We need you. I need you. I need your strength. I think as we count the days towards the anniversary of the worst day in our lives, the pain simply gets worse.
Your mom is hurting baby and you should know while I'm there to help her let go of the pain and the anger, I need you to help me to help her.
Miss you too much.
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Saturday, November 20, 2004
I miss you so much zam.
Giant hugs and kisses from here to there. Your smile and spirit gets me through each day. I love you.
S
Steph Reed posted a condolence
Friday, November 12, 2004
So much has happened since we last talked. I made it to college down in florida and i'm cheering. It's nothing like LouisvilleOur dream College but it keeps me in shape. It's called Florida Atlantic University and it's literally 5 miutes from the beach...Needless to say i go there way more than i should. Anyway, i need your help. i don't know if im cut out for the whole college experience. i miss home my friends i miss my mom and i cant help to think that thats so selfish of me because you don't get the chance to spend time with your mom. I think i've cried everyday since my birthday october first. I knew you would be 19 two days later and i couldn't help remembering my 16th bday. When we went to champs and you ate a hot pepper. and then your car wouldn't start in my driveway. I have the best pictures of that night and they are all over my dorm. i miss you way much and i can't help but wonder if we would still be friends.
i come home in 11 days. my last day home will be the two year mark. me and missy i think are gona come visit you before my flight. i need you angel, i need you to be my wings cuz sometimes i just think i can't do it anymore. and i know college is supposed to be all about growing up but how can i grow up when im stuck in of 2002 when we won uca nationals. that day replays in my mind everyday. everyday. tell your mom i miss her. i miss you too. i'll see you soon babygirl.
love you
stephanie
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 2, 2004
Hey Baby....How are you today? It's been hard these days. First your birthday and now we're coming up on 2 years since I last saw you or spoke to you.. Is it possible for someone to die of a broken heart? Sometimes I think it is. Sometimes I wish it was possible. It's so hard to keep going...
Some say I sould be grateful for what I have....I should count my blessings and thank god I'm still alive. I am grateful for many things, Zam... Fredo, Dave, Marcella, our family and friends. I'm grateful to have people around me who understand that I JUST DON"T UNDERSTAND... THAT I JUST WANT YOU BACK.... There are no words that make me feel better, there are no books that explain your death or how we're supposed to go on living, day in and day out, with the pain and emptiness of losing you...
If this was god's big plan, if this was his idea of a test, I've failed miserably, baby....And I want the chance to take that test over again...
I miss you, Baby... I will see you soon.....
momma-duke
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Brittany posted a condolence
Monday, November 1, 2004
heyy zammy... miss you alot! It's not the same without you here. I'll see you when I get there...<3
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Dottie posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Hey Zam,
I brought my sister to your grave the other day...she misses you so much. She has all her pictures in her room from Explosion and rock-its. Remember those days? wow Rock-its was soo long ago, we were so young! Zam, these next few weeks are gonna be really hard for me, help me get through it.I'm on here everyday to see all the great things people have to say to you and about you. I love you girl
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, October 17, 2004
heyy babydoll,
how ya doing up there? everything ok? its iight down here .. next month it`ll be 3 years already !! time flies by babe .. ive been thinking about you alot girl since homecoming and powderpuff are coming up and ive been looking through all my old pictures and there are some of you and i just sit and look at your beautiful face and just cry - cry - cry and cry .. i dont know what else i can do ?! just keep watching over me and everyone else who loves you. cant wait till we reunite again babe <3
love always
your neyner*
heres another poem/quote for you
greatly loved you are and greatly missed you'll be we love you more than you know but now you're our angel with wings
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Dottie posted a condolence
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Hey beautiful...
How are you? I hope your doing good up there...we're all hangin in down here.Zammy,I miss you soo much...everytime I'm bored, I go to visit and talk to you. I hope you can hear me, I know your watchin over all of us! Sometimes I think I can feel you here wiht me, I hope it is you. I would give anything just to talk to you again! Someday I hope to find the reason why God took you away from us ?
I lay in bed at night, just starring at your picture, the one you took of yourself. Your so beautiful..you had your whole life ahead of you and now we have to live it without you. Why?? I just don't understand it. Watch over us Zam, We've been gettin alittle crazy sometimes. You will forever be loved!
Waiting for the day I can see you again Angel ! I love you
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Gia posted a condolence
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
I know you're busy up there, but I need a little hand today, girl...
honey to the bee...xoxoxoxoxoxxo gia
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Dave posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 5, 2004
Hey Baby,
I hear you, I miss you too.
What an aboslutely perfect morning. Today is the type of morning that up until 1 year and 313 days ago, I would have taken a deep breath and said to myself what an incredible day to be alive.
It's early and I'm on my way to work, the air is just cool enough to give you that crispness without being so cold so you can see your breath, the sun has just come up and there's a deep blue sky. The trees and grass just jump out at you with a bright green against the blue sky. I'm passing by you, wishing you good morning and all I can think of is, I can't believe your not here to share this with us. I miss you so much.
I'm in the city now and I pull into the parking garage like I do every morning, I pull up to the fifth floor first spot by the elevators like always. I'm in automatic mode while my mind is filled with you. Then as I grab my brief case from the back seat I see something which I have never seen before. This bright morning sun has shown through the back windshild of the truck and placed a shadow of your name from the windshield onto the back of the seat right in front of me.
I hear you baby, I'm glad you shared this beautiful morning with me. I miss you too.
J
Jen posted a condolence
Monday, October 4, 2004
Happy 19th Birthday my gorgeous Angel : I think about you every day, I miss you every minute, and I love you every second. Life and the World is not the same w/out you in it. See you in my dreams...
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Elena Zamora posted a condolence
Monday, October 4, 2004
Happy Birthday Zam
We all miss you
Love
Elena and Rob
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Dottie posted a condolence
Monday, October 4, 2004
Happy Birthday Zam! Sorry I know I'm a day late but I didn't get a chance to write to you yesterday. Zam I miss you so much... I can't believe it will be two years since I last seen you. You will never be forgotten, you will be in all of our memories forever. Your grave looks beautiful...just like you. There are so many flowers and balloons, so many people loved you girl.You should have seen Kristin writing on the balloons like a crazy lady, she wouldn't stop.I wrote you a letter one day and brought it to you, I hope you got a chance to read it. The picture that we left there from graduation is getting ruined, we didn't think we the rain could get through it but I guess we were wrong,we don't think that much! I wish you were here with us now and for senior year. Sometimes it's not fair , we shouldn't have gone through it without you. But I know you are watching over every single one of us. I know your always around, if not in spirit..in my heart..forever. I love you Zam!
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Mal posted a condolence
Monday, October 4, 2004
Happy Birthday babe! I wish you were here with us to celebrate turning 19. Everyone misses you so much, and I don't think that pain will ever diminish. You were such an inspiration and your smile could light up any room. Can't wait to see you again angel....but until then rest in peace...
C
Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Sunday, October 3, 2004
Zammy- Happy Birthday! I miss you and love you. I think about you every single day, you are always in my thoughts. You are my shining star. Never will anyone forget you! Happy birthday again! Love you
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, October 3, 2004
zammy .. happy 19th baby .. god i miss you soo much .. im goin to the cemetary to come say hey and stuff .. wow it still shocks me to know that your gone and your not coming back although i wish you were!! cant wait till i see you again it will be just like old times .. me and you forever <3
no matter how far apart we are
we`ll always be best friends!!
love u with all my heart
your neyyner .. bffe
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Missy Pitts posted a condolence
Saturday, October 2, 2004
Zammy,
Today is your birthday. 19 years old. what a party we should be having for you. Its just not fair. Why? that question has been burning inside of me since the moment you left us. Tomorrow I will go to the cemetery and visit you. You know how hard that is for me. Please be with us all tomorrow as we grieve together. Even if everyone that loves you can not be together we will all be together at heart. Aching for you to come back to us. The pain, it is unreal. I still do not understand why....it shouldn't have been you. You should be here with your family that loves you so much. You should see your Dad Zam...I know you are watching over him...I saw him last weekend at Alfredo's birthday party and he looks great. You would be so proud. I know that you are! He made such delicious food for the party, you would have loved it. Your niece is so beautiful! Can you imagine it has been a whole year! I know you sent her here! She is truly a gift from God. The pain in my heart just won't go away. I want you to be here...Zammy, my angel I wish you could come back to us. We must all wait now to meet you in heaven. Watch over your family, especially Alfredo and the baby...they are all that keep your Mom going. She needs you to do that for her. Please Zam.
I am going to the gym tomorrow night to visit. I remember all over the time which was a lot we spent together. I remember the laughing, sweating, fighting, awesome times that brought us together. Cheerleading it was your life. I wonder where you would be cheering now. You were soo good. I loved to watch you cheer. Such a natural. I know I was hard on you but it only made you the best...and that is what you are. I'm going to hopefully visit your mom tomorrow...its going to be a tough day for her Zam...help her out. She loves you sooo much. I hope you are doing something for your birthday that we can only dream of. I imagine you having the time of your life. Living like you always did. To the fullest extent.
The pain in my heart is unbearable. I love you forever. I can not wait to see you again. My forever angel.
I love you
RIP
Missy
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-MOM- posted a condolence
Friday, October 1, 2004
Hey Baby:
Today is October 1st. It's your neice's first birthday. She is so beautiful and happy. I can't believe a year has gone by. She is a blessing to us and has brought much comfort to me and your brother and Dave. Watch over her and protect her.
Sunday is the 3rd. It's your 19th birthday. Another birthday without you. Another year my heart is broken... Another year without you... Another reason to cry... I look at pictures of you and I wonder what changes would have taken place if you were still alive. Could you have possibly gotten more beautiful? What dreams would you have? Would you be in school or in love? I wanted to share those changes with you. I wanted to watch you grow and learn and live. I wanted.......You wanted...
The pain is so bad it takes my breath away....
M
Mal Mullen posted a condolence
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Hey beautiful...It will be two years since you passed in exactly two months and I don't think the pain of losing you has ever been so bad. It's been a long time since I've written to you but I still think about you every minute of every day. Me and the girls go to your grave at least once a week, it's so beautiful. We all miss you so much, it seems like the pain will never diminish. It's not fair that you weren't here to enjoy our senior year.....prom...senior trip...graduation...I miss you so much babe, I can't wait til the day I can see you again. I know that you are safe in heaven, you've come to me in my dreams on more than one occassion and I thank you for that. You will always hold a very special place in my heart.....I love you hunny....
M
Missy Pitts posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Hey Zammy,
I hope you can read this, because I want you to know how much I miss you! I wish you were here with us right now! I love you
Missy
xoxoxox
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Aunt Mar posted a condolence
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Hi Zam, in a couple of weeks you would be celebrating your 19th birthday. I'm planning on making an apple cake in your honor and I'm going to pick all the apples off the top, just for you. and by the way,thank you for talking to the big guy about those couple of rainy days that just happened to miss my back yard parties. Love you and miss you forever and a day. Aunt Mar
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Sarah Pajak posted a condolence
Monday, September 13, 2004
Zam,
This took me awhile because girlfriend honestly we never really got the chance to know one another. How that can happen when you are family I don't know? When I think about that night at your viewing I can still feel the heavy heartache as I saw all your friends and our family mourning for you girl! All I kept thinking was why you, Zam you were the same age as me! You were'nt finished cheering at football games and what about your Prom? Your girlfriends? Why were you so young? You were too beautiful to be taken from this Earth. However you know the answer to this now, but here we are all still left with so much despair and so many questions. Give us all the grace to keep on living especially your dad and Dave and Fredo and your mom! Give them all the strength and courage they need to be here without you. Please let them know that you are ok! I dont't know how but send them more smiles then tears, more happiness then fears and more ups then downs each and everyday! I know you probably already know that I talked about you for my retreat speach and that I chose that song for a reason, because I hope and pray all the time that you are my angel! I love you Zam!
Cousin Barbara,
Girlfriend you have to keep on living and being strong for your baby girl! I know it's hard but through you now, Zam lives on! So be strong, be beautiful for her! I love you Barbara!
Love,
Sarah
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Hey Baby Girl... How are you? Are you OK? Are you happy and safe? Are you watching out for the soles you left behind? We miss you so much, Zam.... Seconds, minutes, hours, days... They all blend in to one pianful event... One unbearable moment in time when we had to say goodby to you. I have a faded memory of a life without pain... A time when I felt safe and secure in the knowledge that my children would grow up happy and healthy and that, when I was finished, I would pass away in peace knowing my job was done and I did it to the very best of my ability...And now I sit here... Wanting nothing more than to see you again. Torn between life and the after life. Wanting to be here and wanting to be with you. Is it wrong for me to want so selfishly? Is it wrong for me to be angry that you were taken from me? Right or wrong, I cannot change my feelings, as I cannot change the fate that took you away....
Watch out for your brother, Zam... He got sick again last night and I was so afraid...Afraid that if God could do it once, what's to stop him from doing it again? I'm so afraid all the time, Zam.... Watch over him, above all else, watch over him!
Love forever and ever.....
Mom :o
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Laur posted a condolence
Monday, August 30, 2004
Hey Baby,
i miss you soo much i dont know what to do anymore. Every beautiful face, every perfect hair~do, every lip gloss i see reminds me of you and and all of your elegance. you were the most perfect thing i've ever known and i cant believe it's been so long since i've hugged you, since i've smelled you, since i've touched you. i see you in my memories, and sometimes in my dreams but i dont care what anyone says.. thats NOT enough!! why did u leave???? i dont get it!!! i want to feel you.. i love you so much, i hate this! just tell me you're ok, please tell me..and come back to me someway.. somehow.. this wasn't supposed to happen! i watch videos from 15 years ago and hear you say "pick my up!" and it hurts me so much to not be able to pick you up and squeeze you anymore.. which i would have done from when u were 3 to always..i will miss you always and cant wait for the day we meet again.. my boo boo baby..i miss you!
i love you so much!!!
Laur
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Gia posted a condolence
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
whats goin on up there cuz?
i know what you've been trying to tell me... you know i feel the same exact way. in this i realize another way we are apart, but one. until that day... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
J
Jgc posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Zammy -
Its almo0st two0 years now thatt god to0k you away and not a day go0es by that im not thinking about yo0u- your o0n my mindd every minute, every seco0nd of the day. I had a dream about you last nightt andd it was November 26, andd we were at this place and we were laughing like we use to and we spent the whole day together just catching up on things unTill when we were about to say go0d bye, you passed away in my arms and that had to be the worstt painn i felt - i could see you, hear you, and smell you , and in my arms you told me that everything would be okaii and that you would always look down on me i woke up cRyin i miss you so much zamm and i cant believe ur not here. From the day you passed away to the day i am writing this, the painn hass not gone awayy and it did not get easier. I wish god wo0uld have to0ken me and not you, i wishh that i co0uldd switch places with you zamm but i cantt. I would give absolutely anythingg just to0 see you o0ne moore time. Alfredo0s baby is just so cute and when i looked at her and all i saw was youu . Im just waiting for the day when its my turn to co0mee - i hope you will be at the gatess waiting fo0r me , butt untill that dayy i have to0 takee the painn like everyo0ne else is. There is really no way to deal with the pain becuasee you were such a important person in my lifee and now your gone.
Zammy i hope you are o0kk and i hope that every day you can watch do0wn o0n me and help me threw the tough times in my life.
I miss you so0 muchH babyygurllL
Rest in peace Zam - you are always in my heart no matter what!
10.3.85 - 11.26.02
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Dale posted a condolence
Sunday, August 15, 2004
hey there monkey...
thought i'd write a lil somethin. its hard thinking that you would be a freshman in college this year. and as i'm packing up getting ready to start my sophmore year it hurts to know you'll never be able to come visit me at school.
i was watching a movie the other day..you know me, an old 80s movie lol...and the lead character lost her best friend. and at her funeral she said, "each time the sun rises an angel is sure to follow.." it made me think of you. its comforting to know that you are with me everyday. it eases the pain somewhat. so for now, i'll keep smiling, keep dreaming, and wait to join you in heaven. i love you monkey
Love,
Dale
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neyy posted a condolence
Sunday, August 8, 2004
heyy sweetie ! been thinking about you alot lately as im going to start my freshman year at twp - i still remember you telling me to watch out for all the teachers and certain ones to like and not like and you said you couldnt wait to get out and graduate! i wonder what your doing up there? soon enough i`ll be up there with you and join you and it will be just like old times again! i think about you everyday and talk to you every night before i go to bed and i know your answering me back by the support you give me! i`ll write back soon and i`ll talk to you to tonight babe!
love you with all my heart <3
x0ox0ox0o0xo neyy
wrote this for you . not long
i know you my angel in the sky
but u still have to wonder why?
A
Anonymous posted a condolence
Thursday, August 5, 2004
Zammy,
I dont even kno where to start. I have not written in this since u have passed. tho i do come to this web site and read what everyone writes u. I remember in school one day before u passed there was a rumor going around that u have died. I didnt believe it and i didnt want to. But the next day, i remember it perfectly, i was in 8th period and all the girls in my class were asking how u were and if u were gonna make it. I said she's not doin to well but if i kno zam she'll make it through. About 10 minutes later an announcment came on. I knew what it was i just had this dreadful feeling. They announced that u had died and everyone turned to me with their jaws wide open.I just walked out of the classroom and went to my friends car. We all just sat there in the car crying. People at school starring at us as we drove by. We knew we had to play powderpuff with out u. Zam i kno we lost it for u but we truely tried our best. I even tripped and ran over seniors just to grab that flag for u.
Me and u were never close friends we hung out with the same group and got along great. and to tell u the truth i would of loved to get closer to u even if i knew u were going to pass. I heard u were a great friend i knew that just by looking at you. I know God had a reason for you up there. I know he wanted u from the second u were born, but he wanted u to help us out down here and then after the years u would need to go help him.
to Zams mom, i know how hard it must be for u. and when i read ur writings to her. U make it sound like u didnt raise her good enouph and that u fought too much. But if u didnt do that Zam would not of been the person she was today by having all of these people love her. Wether they are friends with her or not. Please keep ur head up. Fredos baby was sent by Zam to help u and the family. I know it.
Zam i love u and ill see u soon!
J
Jen posted a condolence
Monday, July 26, 2004
Hi my beautiful Zambolina, I was just staring at one of your pictures that I have in my office. Its amazing to me that Time has not made this any easier for me. It seems as though I'm hurting more than ever. I hate this pain that I have inside me. I feel it every day and its not going away...AT ALL ! I wish I knew if it ever will. I love you so very much...my precious guardian angel :
Talk to you again soon...
Love, Tight Hugs, and Kisses,
Jen~
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Hey Baby....
I was thinking about you today, like every other day. Chrissy's 21st birthday party was Saturday and it was a difficult time. I remember Lauren's 21st... You were upset that you didn't have a 16th birthday party that year and I remember saying to myself "I can't wait for her 18th birthday, I'm going to give her the party of her life"....18 never came for you. Nor will 19 or 20 or 21... No more birthdays or holidays... No more competitions.. No more fights about curfew or homework or boyfriends..No more anything! Just emptiness and pain.... for all of us. Everyone misses you soooo much!!
I see signs of you everywhere... Sometimes in quite moments, sometimes in your neice's smile, sometimes in your brother's eyes, sometimes in Chrissy's wild hair, so much like yours.
I envy every mother with a daughter. I'm jealous that everyone else has a chance to make up for all their mistakes with their daughters and I am not able to do that...... I just want one more chance, Zam... Once chance to say "I'm sorry"... One chance to say "I love you"... Once chance to kiss you and smell your hair....
Just one more chance!
I love you!
Momma Duke
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Alia posted a condolence
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Zammy, I want you to know that I still think about you every single day. I still think about the last conversation I had with you before you left us. After all this time you are still missed so much and I can't wait to see you again. i love you
D
Dave posted a condolence
Friday, July 16, 2004
Hey honey,
I miss you.
I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. But heck, we talk every morning. Well I talk you listen, who woulda thought?
I turn on the light in the credenza with your photo's each morning. As I look into your eyes and give you a good morning to wake you, I can still feel your groans and moans from mornings past. I imagine I will keep waking you each day if not for anything else to hold on to that memory of you.
You probably never gave it much thought, but by mere sleeping you gave me purpose. You were safe in your bed because I would look over you and protect you.
I miss you.
k
kirstin posted a condolence
Monday, July 5, 2004
heyy zam-
I've been meaing to visit your grave but i have been really busy hopefully i have a chance sometime soon. I really miss you! i still can't believe that your still gone. I watch the cheer xplosion tapes and seeing you up in the air flying kills me, because you taught me how to fly, and because if you were still alive you would of still been cheering. I hope you doing okay. I think about you all the time. I will never forget you i hope you know that. I love you soooo much. r.i.p zam
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gia posted a condolence
Friday, July 2, 2004
hey cuz. there's never a day that i don't think about you, but lately, as things appear to be getting a little better i can't help but think that you're up there pulling some strings for me. if it is you that has been watching over me these past few weeks...THANK YOU!!!!!!
we all miss you so much. i love u.
xoxoxxooxxoxoxoxox...
..honey to the bee that's you for me..
C
Christen Romeo posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
WHY?
I Can't explain how I feel,
I don't know what to say,
When I come to the realization
That you're so far away.
I get such a bitter feeling inside
as I sit feeling hollow asking God WHY?
Why is it OK to just take people away,
Away from family and friends that want them to stay?
Not one little piece of me can understand it at all,
How we're just supposed to be content with memories and pictures on our walls.
Whatever the reason is, I don't think it's fair.
Give her back to us,
We were all so unprepared.
I remember us saying "I'll be your maid of honor if you'll be mine"
We will grow old together and have girls just like us,
Who look out for one another with all their faith and trust.
But something got in the way of our path,
Like a tree in the road that can never be passed.
I don't want to wait any longer to see you again,
I lost my cousin, my sister;
Someone stole my best friend.
LOVE ALWAYS, CHRISTEN
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Thursday, June 10, 2004
zammy, i miss you, i love you & cherish every single memory i have of you. I am so grateful for all of them. but my heart aches so much to see you again. love to you forever and a day, xoxo aunt mar
C
Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Thursday, June 10, 2004
Zammy, When I go to my prom tomorrow night I promise to think of you. I know that you missed yours, and it wasn't fair. I will have a good time for both of us. Miss you everyday. No one will ever forget you.
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Lisa Romeo posted a condolence
Monday, June 7, 2004
Zam, I dreamed about you the other nite - you were about 4 years old - you were dancing in a field of grass with a purple dress with lots of netting that you were twirling above your head with your arms raised - I knew it was you because of your dark, curly hair and big brown eyes - you were smiling and happy - it was over too quickly as I wanted to visit with you for a while, but you disappeared - I know in my heart that you were trying to tell me that you were at peace, and to remember you young, beautiful and happy just as you appeared in my dream - just as you always were -so that's what I will do.
I think about you and miss you terribly every day, but seeing you so happy made my heart feel a little bit lighter and a little bit less broken.
Love you always - Aunt Wee
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Friday, May 21, 2004
Missing Graduation
Parents' happy faces all around me,
With a glow from within,
Pomp and Circumstance is playing,
Now the program will begin.
The graduates are all lined up,
They are coming down the aisle,
Some have serious faces, yet
Some have little smiles.
I look down the aisle,
Hoping your face will come into sight,
This is your class,
It was your graduation night.
All the graduates pass by,
But none of them is you.
A tug of my heart tells me,
Your not here, your death is true.
I wanted you here so badly.
But God has called you home,
Now I sit here watching,
As my heart turns into stone.
I look into your classmates' faces,
Do they recall you, missing this day?
Memories, sweet memories,
Now fill my mind and heart.
There will be no golden tassel,
This day for my sweetheart.
The class is oh so happy,
Their parents glow with pride,
I stand alone on the sidelines,
Wishing you were by my side.
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Friday, May 21, 2004
Lost Graduation
Pomp and Circumstance
Speeches
Happy Faces
Proud Parents
It's just not Fair
Because you're not here
School Song playing
Gifts
Celebration
Laughing Friends
We cannot share
Because you're not there
Mortar Boards flying
Diplomas
Tassels Tossing
Teachers Smiling
It's too much to bear
Because you're not there
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missy posted a condolence
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Zam,
Always thinking of you...miss you always. Love you with all my heart. Til we meet again.....
b
brother posted a condolence
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Zam.....Time passes so swiftly anymore, it seems like only yesterday you were here. My plate is so full lately that I have not even the time to think clearly..My judgment is clouded, my heart still broken, and my mind more then ever confused. When I sit back and think of you or look @ you on the picture in my phone...The pain comes back all over again..I wish you were here to see my daughter, she is the most beautiful thing I've ever laid my eyes on. Just for today baby...I promise I will pick my ass off the ground and put one foot in front of the other, and try to do the right thing, cause it's really been hard lately. I miss you and love you ...watch over me Zam and guide me through these hard times....
Love Always....Fredo
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kirstin posted a condolence
Saturday, May 1, 2004
zammie,
Today I was watching video tapes from cheerleading. When i was watching you cheer i began to cry. Your face was filled with such excitment, you were happy.I miss cheering with someone that loves cheerleading as much as you did. I still think about you everyday. Rest in peace zam. Keep watchin over us!
j
jim dimaggio posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Hey my angel, everytime something gets me down I pray to you and I get a tingling sensation inside of me. You will always live on in my heart. I think about all the times we spent together and how lucky I am to have had such a special person in my life. I wish you here to experience your prom, graduation, and your senior trip, but I know God's taking care of you. I will always love you Zam. Keep watching over me
Love,
Jim
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Missy posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Hey Zam,
Everyday I drive past the cemetery and feel the pain of losing you. I can't stop replaying the last time I saw you. It was during tumbling practice and you weren't landing your standing tuck consistently and I was yelling at you. as I always was; You asked me to look at your car and I left before I got the chance. If I would have only stayed that little extra time, I would have been able to have been with you just a little longer. Then the last time I saw you in the hospital, I didn't allow myself to realize what was going on. If I would have realized, I would have hugged you and told you everything that is still in my heart right now. I remember Dave told me, Jim and Danielle to say goodbye. We didn't want to. We didn't want to say good bye, it was so hard. The pain that everyone felt and still feels to this very day. Without you here, we have an empty space in our hearts. I go to competitions and cry because I know you are supposed to be on the mat cheering with all the other girls and it is not fair. Its just not. I thought that it would easier as time passed, but for some reason it only gets harder. It's so hard to bare the thought of you being gone. Sometimes I still don't believe it. NOT YOU. Its not fair. I want to have a 2002 small senior reunion, but it just wouldn't be the same without you there. I want you to be there with us. I don't understand. Keep watching over everyone, I know you are. and visit me in my dreams.
I love you Zammy
You are an angel
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Hay Baby Girl:
Every once in awhile I sign on to read and remember. Every once in awhile I let myself cry and morn. Every once in awhile is every second of every day.....
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years..... When will I get to see you again? When can I hold my little girl? When I hold your neice sometimes I can feel your warm heart hugging me back. When I see your brother some of my pain subsides for a little while. These are the things that keep me going. These are the things that keep me alive.
Today is Grandmon's Birthday... Go to her and let her feel you.... she misses her Snuggle Bunny too... I don't always understand the depth of everyone's pain, but I know she hurts without you. I know she would give her own life to give you back yours.......
I miss you, baby. It still hurts when I breath. It's still a struggle to get out of bed in the morning and care what's going on around me. My world crumbled when you left. I'm thankful for your brother and Dave and Marcella. I hope they are patient with me. I have not been myself for a very long time. I have not been fair to them. I hope they understand......
I didn't get a chance to tell you so many things before you died. Like how much I love you and how proud I am of you. And I'm sorry for being impatient with you as a teenager. I'm sorry for all the fights and arguements we had. I remember the day I took you to school and I pushed your books out the door, and with them went your little box with all your gold.. I spent an hour outside school looking for everything. I wish I could relive that day and so many others. I would do so many things differently. I also remember all the good times we had together. At competitions especially... When I remember you cheering I still lose my breath... Those were the best years, watching you cheer!
I will always love you...I will never forget you!
M
Melanie posted a condolence
Tuesday, April 6, 2004
Hey hun. We all miss you down here. We know you're watchin over all of us though. We were recently in Baltimore and we won 4 National titles and 3 Grand Champ titles as well. And in Jacksonville and Florida we got 5 more titles. All for you babe. I wish you were here to share the glory with us all. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you at some point. You were an incredible person and it's definitly not the same without you. I saw your mom in Baltimore for the first time in a year. She looks incredible. We all miss seeing you and your mom both. Can't wait to see you again in heaven babe. I love you!
J
Jen posted a condolence
Monday, March 22, 2004
If I knew it'd be the last time that I'd see your beautiful face, I would have kissed it harder & hugged you tighter, everywhere, everyplace. If I knew it'd be the last time I'd get to see you light up a room, I would have watched you longer, especially when you groomed. If I knew it'd be the last time that I'd watch you apply your lip gloss, I would have appreciated the little things in life..a heck of a lot more. If I knew it'd be the last time I could smell and feel your hair & skin, I would have kept my arms around you longer..until the very end. If I knew it'd be the last time I'd see you pick the apples off the cake, I would have baked you one every day, and brought it right over to your place. If I knew it'd be the last time I'd get to watch you do flips on the beach, I would have been there each time, and not complained about the drive or the pain in my feet.
I've learned from you that life is too short. I've learned that I do not apreciate the little things in life hard enough. I've learned that our family is stronger than I thought. I've learned how to overcome the worst kind of pain. But what I've really learned...is that I haven't learned all the things that I need to learn.
I didn't know Zam....I didn't know.
I miss you..I love you...You are the reason why I believe in Angels.
Love Jenny Poo Poo
C
Courtney Grifin posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Zammy- I still think and dream about you everyday. I miss you very much as does everyone. Please watch over me. We all love you.
C
Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Zammy- I still think and dream about you everyday. I miss you very much as does everyone. Please watch over me. We all love you.
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Friday, March 12, 2004
Hay Baby Girl:
I'm sitting here in work thinking about you and reading some of the new entries in your guestbook. It's amazing to me that so many people still sign in and write notes to you. I hope it never stops. It does my heart good to know I am not the only one that misses you so very much.
You were so very special to so many people. Your smile still lights my heart... Sometimes I think it was all just a bad dream and you are still here. Then I wake up and realize I no longer have my beautiful baby girl. I miss you so much Zam. I have learned to live with this intolerable pain in my heart.. It has not subsided... I guess it never will. I am waiting patiently to see you again. Sometimes I just want to wish my life away so I can be with you sooner. I know I have work left to do here and I am trying my best to get it all done. But oh, just to see you face and smell you hair. To have you back where you are supposed to be.... HERE... With us... Your family... Your friends... The people that love you...
It only hurts when I breath.........
Watch over us baby... Reat in peace and I will see you in my dreams....
M
Myrthy posted a condolence
Thursday, March 11, 2004
Querida Zambolina...I remember the 1st time we met at grandmom's house and u looked at me with those beautiful big brown eyes, sucking ur thumb and giving me that "who are u?" look. Never thought I'd be so intimidated by a 5 yr old! Now, years later I realize how lucky and blessed I was to have u in my life. If not for u, there would be no "Aunt Milky" nor would my addiction to Liplites vanilla swirl lipgloss exist. Having to say goodbye to u was heartwrenching but I knew that God was going to take good care of you and that gave me peace. I know that you are in a much better place now. All the happy/funny memories keep you alive in my heart! I've dreamt of u so many times. The 1st time, u were hangin' out with all of your "angelmates" at the cemetary and u peeked out from behind a tree and told me that everything was ok...I smile everytime I think of that dream! Uncle Michael misses u terribly! I pray that u watch over him! I love u...Milk
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Aunt Mar posted a condolence
Friday, February 13, 2004
My dear Zambolina, I miss you so much. This giant hole in my heart continues to search for reasons why you were taken from us. Not that any reason would be a good answer. I HATE God for taking you from us. Like He had to prove a point to us, at your expense. It's not fair Zam. He should have taken me instead of you. You had such a full, happy life and there was no reason why it had to be taken away so soon. I Think about you day and night and I miss you even more. I love you Zam.
M
Missy posted a condolence
Monday, February 2, 2004
Zam, I love you and miss you more each day. I went and visited your mom on Friday. She is doing well but she misses you soo much. We are going up to the gym to visit everyone on Thursday. I wish I was going to see you. I remember how much fun we had cheering together. You were such an awesome cheerleader. So determined and such a hard worker. Your basket tosses were breath taking. I can't wait til the day we can cheer together again. Watch over all of us. I love you Zammy and can't wait to be with you again.
A
Anonymous posted a condolence
Sunday, February 1, 2004
You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky
Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near
Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time
Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain.
A
Anonymous posted a condolence
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Hi sweetheart...I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I miss you terribly and I don't think this pain will ever diminish. I wish I understood why such a beautiful angel was taken away from us. But I know that God has a reason for everything and hopefully someday we will all know what that reason is.
I feel lost without you. I feel like a part of my heart and soul is missing. I miss you more each day. My memories of you are all that get me through the day.
You were such a wonderful person Zam. So beautiful, so full of life, so pleasant to be around. I miss talking to you. I miss hearing your voice. I miss seeing your beautiful smile light up a room. I miss everything about you hunny.
You were cheated out of a life that you deserved to live to the fullest. You should be here with us....enjoying our senior year together.
I love you Zam.....can't wait to see you when I get there. Rest in peace baby girl.
A
Anonymous posted a condolence
Monday, January 26, 2004
Hey babe...just wanted to let you know that I'm thinkin about you. I miss you more than ever. I wish you here to share senior year with us....life isn't the same without you.....I love you hunny....
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NeYy posted a condolence
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
heyy babiigerl!
you have no idea how hard its been without you but im sure your watchin down on me juss like you alwys did wen u wer like the big sister i never had! i`ll always remember the times that we had together cause they wer the best! i cant wait until the day i get to see you again! all i can remember was the last time i saw you! we were laughing about the funniest things n we even planned out your whole wedding! i wish that dream qould have came true just like when you walked into a room -- your beautiful face juss lit the whole room up! everynight i pray that someday you`ll come baq to me and it can be just like old times! me n u taking on the world TOGETHER! but now it feels like i have lost my best friend! but i know if i look up into the sky..i can just picture you r face lookin down on me n praying for me! i just cannot stop thinking about you! i`ll just keep on hoping n praying that you`ll come back to me someday until that day i can just keep looking back n remembering you but its not the same! i love you babe<3! i`ll never forget you! you r in the center of my heart and no1 can take that place away from you! love your other "lil sis" <3
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DucCi posted a condolence
Monday, January 19, 2004
zam, after sittin here readin all ur beautiful entry i thought that i shuld rite one of m own! even doe i realli didnt get to meet u i hear/noe u have a beautiful personalityjust the wonderful storied i hear.i wish u culd have been here to witness all the beautiful thingz that came in lyfe! we all miss u very much nd we <3 u!
i luv u
-DucCi
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Liz posted a condolence
Monday, January 19, 2004
Zammy-
every time i hear your name my heart jus stops, the fact that your gone kills me. its been about 3 years now without you. god took you to early for me but time will go by before you know it we'll all be back with you again. we love you so much and i just want to let you know i think about you day and night. all we want is our angel back! i love you, and to all the Alvarez family your in my heart and prayers. im here for you if you need support! bye baby grl i love you and i cant wait to be with you again! <3
L
Liz* posted a condolence
Monday, January 19, 2004
Zammy-
Even though I didn't get to know you personally I feel like I have. Threw all the great memories and stories my friends have shared with me i feel liek we were friends for a long time. You are missed by alot and you are loved by alot. whenever you walked in to the room your smile made everyone happy. you lit up where ever you were! we love you so much zam and your talents and smile will be remembered by everyone! i love you forever and always. just promise me one thing, that you will watch down on all of us and help us make the right desision and when it comes our time to join you, you will be at the gates to welcome us. your an angel in the sky!
i Love you so much!
j
jc posted a condolence
Monday, January 19, 2004
Zam,
you dont noe how much i miss you and how much that i want you back here. you were my sister, my best friend and i am lost without you. I just keep thinking about all the good times we had and shared together and now that your gone the memories styll last. i can feel you in my heart and in my heart is where you will stey cz i will never forget you. ive know you for 9 years and that has been the best 9 years of my life cz u were here with me sharing everything we did together. but now that ur gone my life is not the same. Everything changed since you left me. i have no one to talk to about the stuff i talked to you about and it hurts me ta look at a picture of you and not cry and it hurts ta noe that i will never get to talk to you again. i need you zam, i noe everyone does. you were such an inspiration in my life and now that ur gone i look up to you now more then i ever did. i love you so0o much zam and i need you back. ill never forget u
always loved never forgotten
j
jim dimaggio posted a condolence
Saturday, January 17, 2004
Zam
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. Some many things have changed since you've been gone and I wonder how things would have been different if you were still here. I miss talking to you, seeing your beautiful face, and everything about you. There is nothing in this world that could bring me as much pain as losing you. You are truly one of a kind Zam. I love you with all my heart and I'll never forget you. Rest in peace my angel.
Love,
Jim
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anonymous posted a condolence
Thursday, January 8, 2004
hi zam! just thinking about you.the last time i saw you with jenn.you two were so funny.anyway ,you dont really know me but just wanted to tell you how much everone misses you. merry christmas and happy new year! take care
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Monday, December 29, 2003
Hay Baby:
Where are you?
Sometime I think I'm ok....Then nights like this happen....
Your Brother...David....They miss you too, baby.... They are the only things that get me through... Dave, Fredo & my memories....
Fre's hurting too... Please watch over him Zam. He needs your strength. He's a Daddy now. He has a little one to watch out for. She is sooooo beautiful, baby. Can you see her?????
She will always know your spirit, Zam. I promise!
Merry Christmas Baby! Happy New Year too. I wish you could be here to celebrate......Another year I live without you......
Watch over us baby... Please take away some of this pain.... If God has a reason for taking you away then tell him to it share with us, cause I don't understand!!!
I'm in you room baby. I can almost smell you, your soooo close... Everything I look at says... "Zam lives here"...... Except.....
Where are you?
Feeling you here........-Mom-
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Missy posted a condolence
Friday, December 26, 2003
Merry Christmas Zam!!
I miss you and love you so much. Life just isn't the same without you here.
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Cryssi Daley posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
i sit here, staring at this screen with so many words in my heart and my head but not knowing if i can write them. you and i both know, zam, that i visit you close to every day. your name brings a stinging to my eyes and a sharp pain to my heart. i have a picture of you in my wallet, and one day in class a girl picked it up and said wow this girl is so gorgeous who is she? and i paused because i hadn't looked at the picture in so long. and i said that's my guardian angel. i said it, and i meant it, and i know it. i can feel you with me whereever i go zam. i've lost so many friends and loved ones in this past year, but still, i think you were the hardest. we met when we were 6 years old. we were those you know, terror children in just kids who used to run around and scream for no reason at all. but we had so much fun together. munchin on our animal crackers and drinkin our NASTY grape juice haha. throughout middle school we kept in touch, the random phone calls. high school, we took two different paths, and we lost touch. but i thank god each and every day that the beginning of your junior year and the beginning of my senior year we became so close again. i'll never forget all the days me, u, danielle, mush, and genna spent together. it hurts to know that everything changed when you left us. i hardly see mush and danielle. i miss you. i know everyone has said it a thousand times, but the emptiness i feel can find no words except that. i miss you, and i love you. i'll never forget the dennis the mennace movie montage, you zippin yourself in those pants, always makin me put my top down in the freezing cold, you falling on me when cafferty's deck collapsed, you getting everyone kicked out of that party and me not wanting you in my car! haha, all the times at mushy's when you would sit there and be like dale, you really are a nerd. and i'd say yeah zam, but you LOVE ME!!! and you would always giggle smile and give me a huge hug. i'll never forget last years mischeif night. mush gettin egg all over my car, zoe gettin egg all over yours. how about that night we drove to all those nonexistent parties?! or the cat haha...god, i need you.
my heart hurts zammy. visit me in my dreams and help calm this pain.
i loved you then, i love you now, i'll love you always...
DaLe
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bran posted a condolence
Sunday, December 7, 2003
Hey Zam,
I can't believe its been over a year. I finally got up to see you a couple weeks ago with my mom and brother, but i wanted to spend time with you alone. I made time a week after that and sat and talked to you for a little while. While i was sitting there i told you that there were so many questions that i wished were answered, and that i wished that you would come to me in a dream. Well, finally, after a year of many questions unanswered you came to me in a dream last night. Although i vaguely remember what happened in the dream, i remember seeing you like you were alive again, and thinking that the past year was just a horrible dream. It's been about 2 years since i saw your smile. You came to me in a dream and you were as clear as if i saw you yesterday. All i can say is thank you. Thank you for letting me know that you are all right. Thank you for letting me see you one more time. I hope to see you again soon, whether it be in heaven or in a dream, but before you come to me, please comfort your mom, because i know that she wakes up in pain everyday due to your absence. I miss you more than ever and hope to see you soon.
Love,
Bran
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Jen posted a condolence
Thursday, December 4, 2003
Hi again my beautiful angel...I have been thinking about you all day today as usual. A lot of our family members have seen you in their dreams and felt you all around them. But I haven't seen you yet Zam. I'm so upset. I had one dream about you the other night..it was when you were about 8 or 9 years old and we were at the Haddontown Swim Club. But I wish so much for you to come see me...whether its in my dreams or when I'm just sitting in my apartment watching TV. Sometimes I feel like I feel your presence and I stop for a minute to see if I can talk to you....but I'm just not sure if you're really there or if I'm just wishing you were. When I close my eyes at night to go to bed, I pray every single night that this will be the night you will come to me in my dreams. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm pressuring you...I know you have hundreds and hundreds of people to visit but I'm just so very anxious all the time. Christen tells me how she talks to you and how you come to her in dreams...and so did Aunt Mar...and I just want to see you again so badly. Maybe its b/c I haven't forgiven God either.. The other week on Thanksgiving, we were all picking the apples off grandmom's apple cake just for you...You're mom picked like 10 apples...I just kept seeing your little fingers while everyone was picking them off. Oh my how we miss you...there aren't enough words in this world to describe....You had more life in you than anyone else I know and I don't think I will ever ever ever understand why God wanted you so early. My heart and my faith will never be the same again....
Well I have to go back to work now my Zam. I will write again soon...I love you I miss you. Love Poo
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Thursday, December 4, 2003
It's a bad day, baby... Not that any day is good, but this one seems to be worse. Nothing in particular happened. Nothing ever has to happen for me to have a bad day. My baby is gone and I can't do anything about it. I'm supposed to be able to protect my children. It's my job to make sure you are safe and healthy. I'm so sorry for not doing my job well, Zam. I'm sorry it was you instead of me. I'm sorry you're not cheering this year, your senior year, with your cheer family. I'm sorry you won't get to walk down that isle and graduate with your friends, go to college, have a successful career, fall in love, get married, have babies...... I'm sorry for it all, Zam. I wish I could turn back the clock. There were so many things you were supposed to do with your life. So many thing to see and do and explore.
You were cheated out of a life. We were all cheated because you were taken away. My only hope is that you are at peace and that God had a very good reason for taking you away from us. I ask Him every day for a reason..... I think I deserve an answer.... Maybe someday he will give me one...
I miss you every minute of every day, Zam. I have to remind myself to get up in the morning, to breath in and out, and to care about what's going on around me. It's a difficult task and I'm tired baby. Give me the strength to keep on going.........
All my love -Mom-
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Stephanie posted a condolence
Friday, November 28, 2003
I miss you baby. There isn't a day that goes by that I dont think about you. I call your cell phone almost everyday just to hear your voice. I look at our pictures and smile and cry. You are soo beautiful and that smile... You could light the entire room with that smile. I'm sorry I havn't been up to visit. My mom says Im too new of a driver. I'll be up to see you soon. It's soo hard Zam. We're supposed to be Srs. together. I know you've waited soo long for this year just like I have. I don't understand why I get to experience it and you don't. Im back on small srs. It's not the same without you. I want you to know that that year was the best year of my life.
I watched Steel Magnolias last night. And everytime Shelby goes into that coma I start to cry. I can't help it. Zam that movie was still in your VCR when you left. I wish you were here so much. I miss you and your mom at practice. I miss competing with you. I need you to watch over me baby. It's my last year. Be a guardian Angel. I love you babygirl. You'll be in my Heart Always.
Love Stephy
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Jen posted a condolence
Thursday, November 27, 2003
I remember when you were little, I thought you were the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in my life. You took my breath away. I remember asking your mom all the time if I could wake you up from your naps b/c you always smiled so big w/ your big eyes and wrapped your little arms around me when I picked you up from your crib. I remember when I babysat for you and you'd curl up next to me under the blanket on the couch and watch tv w/me. I remember when you became a teenager..I was in awe of your beauty&your charm. How you would light up a room and everyone would stare at you b/c of how beautiful you were. These are just some of the thousands of memories I have. I am still having a little bit of trouble coping & believing that you are not here anymore. I stare at your picture every day, I think about you almost every minute, and I love you every second of my days. I have not doubt that I will see you again one day..that feeling brings me some comfort..but there is absolutley nothing I wouldn't give to be able to put my arms around my cousin right now. I miss you so very much Zam. You are the reason why I believe in Angels.....
Love Jenny Poo Poo
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Kristina Rice posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Dear Zammy
Its been a year, and i cant believe it. It went by so quick. We all miss you n love you so much. My best friend Matt just came up nov. 12,2oo3, hope you guys met, hes so wonderful. I hope your neice is as beautiful as you and has the spirit you did. You were truely one of a kind, even though i didnt get to know you for as long as everyone else, the stories i heard and read are funny, and shows what kind of a person u were.
Barb,Dave, and Fredo
My name is Kristina, i cheered on Spirit Explosion Jr.Coed last year, i got to talk to Zam a couple times. She was truely an amazing talented girl. i remember the one night, she was int he back of the routine w/ her group, laughing and giggling and not paying attention while every1 else was doign the routine!! she was a goof!! thank you for giving me the opportunity to meet her and cheer on the same organization as her. my prayers n condolences are with you all during this time
Always Remembered.. Never Forgotten
rip baby girl
<3 kristina rice
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kirstin posted a condolence
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
hey zam
it has been a year with out you. it went by so fast, i cant believe its one year. It still doesnt make sense why you had to go, everyone loved you. You were such an outgoing person, i will miss that, and its weird going to comps and seeing spirit xplosion and you not being there. We all truley love and miss you dearly. Watch over us. I love u zam!!
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Elena posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Dear Zam,
Even though we only knew each other for a short time I carry you in my thoughts everyday. Everyone you have every touched misses you so much. You are such a special angel, I hope that your niece has every ounce of your spirit. I pray for you and your family every night. But I have no doubt in my heart that you are watching over and protecting them.
Barb, Dave and Fredo,
Your strength is amazing, I know times can be unbearable but please remember I am right down the street. I love you and will be there any time you need.
Love Always
Lainee
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Dave posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
Hey honey,
You are everywhere and nowhere. I have managed to keep the pain of your absence at bay for a whole year. But there are so many things I miss with you gone.
I miss the smell of you as you would pass by.
I miss the sound of your presence.
As I would get home from work and say "hi honey", I miss the fact that you and your mom would both look up.
I miss being a push over for you.
I miss that feeling of pride that only a father could have for a daughter.
My god honey I miss you.
Love................
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-Mom- posted a condolence
Friday, November 21, 2003
Hay Baby:
It's been over a year since we last spoke. I remember your last words to me as you drove away from me that night. I told you to be careful because it was the first time you drove to practice by yourself. You said "I will, Mom. I love you"..........I was afraid you would get in a car accident... And then that call. That call that will haunt me for the rest of my life. "Come now" Terry said. "Zam went down and she is not getting up". It's like a bad dream that you never wake up from. It's a stabbing pain that never goes away. This is not the order of things. I was supposed to go first. I was ready to go first. But instead I am left here to endure the loss of my only Daughter. My heart and sole. It's just not fair.
I miss you now more than ever Zam. I long to see your face one more time. Hopefully it won't be long now. Wait for me my angel. I will always love you. Watch over us, baby.
Mom
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Missy posted a condolence
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Zammy,
i can not believe that it has almost been one year since you left us. I miss you more than words can ever say. This year has been so hard on everyone and I just hope that you are doing well. I know that you are in heaven with God and are very happy. I can't wait to be with you again. Just to be able to hang out again like we used to. making all sorts of inside jokes and just being us. we always had sooo much fun together. remember how much fun we had in disney me you steph and chrissy and you got us in all that trouble with security because you said you had a gun in your bag..that is soo typical of you and soo funny. that trip was amazing. I will never forget all the good times we had. you were such a special part of my life. I loved you like a sister. and we sometimes fought like sisters too we spent soo much time together!
you are truly an awesome girl. Your beauty could light up an entire room. I just wait for the day that I see you again and the whole 2002 National Champ Small Sr team is together again. That was the best year of my life. and you were such a huge part of it. I just want you to know how much you mean to me and that I think about you everyday. I know that you are watching over everyone. I just wanted to tell you that I love you very much and miss you immensly. Till we meet again.....
you will be missed forever.
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Fredo posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
I?ll meet you at the gates, where life has less despair, I?ll hold my wait with faith, so I can see you when I get there. The precious memories we once lived through, crutch my pain when I realize how much I really miss you. I shall plead forgiveness, for I?m lost at this time, my life has not yet finished, so for a reason I?ve been left behind. Yet my heart continuously bleeds to see you once again, to hold you and to smell you, to thank you for being my best friend. Even though the time we had was sadly cut short, the love we sealed between us will last firmly through this war. Your spirit is my guidance through these dark and troubled nights, your warmth is my strength, when fatigue reins and I can no longer fight. So you see, you served an unconditional purpose, you bless me with hope at the times when I feel worthless. A tear may drop today and roll into the night, but please remember sister, your brother awaits the day until we re-unite. What a glorious day it will be, for you and I to share, but for now I must tend to my destiny, and I will se you when I get there?..
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gia posted a condolence
Thursday, October 16, 2003
this was from the 3rd, but i didn't want to share it until now. miss u and love u cuz.
I?m writing for an angel
Her name too sweet to say
With memories that comfort me
When I don?t want to pray
I?m writing for an angel
A task that?s hard to do
Cuz right when she began to walk
She just as quickly flew
I?m writing for a family
Whose hearts endure a hole
Who wait to see who?ll pick the cake
And clear the broccoli bowl
I?m writing for a family
A task that?s hard to do
Cuz words don?t seem enough sometimes
When one is missing from our crew
I?m writing because I love her
And I am not the only one
And tonight I plan to celebrate
A life that?s far from done
-Happy Birthday Zammy!
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Kirstin posted a condolence
Tuesday, October 7, 2003
Zam- sorry its late..but you were on my mind all day firday, happy birthday!!!! your spirit is still with us. keep looking down on us..love always kirstin
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Courtney posted a condolence
Monday, October 6, 2003
Zammy- I thought about you all day on friday. Happy 18th birthday baby! Love you
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Alexis posted a condolence
Saturday, October 4, 2003
happy birthday beautiful
you'll always be in my thoughts and prayers
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gia posted a condolence
Friday, October 3, 2003
Happy birthday cuz....i love you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox. rest well.
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Mal Mullen posted a condolence
Friday, October 3, 2003
Happy Birthday Sweetheart!! I really wish you were here to celebrate your 18th, especially with your new niece.....I miss you more than ever babe.....but I will definetly come see you tonight....I love you hunny!!!
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bran posted a condolence
Friday, October 3, 2003
Hey babe,
Happy Birthday Zam........i wish you were here to celebrate and share your birthday with my mom once again. Its been a couple months since i wrote last. I hope you are resting in peace. Everytime i get in an arguement with my brother or mom, i think of you and realize that life is only so short....... As i sit here once again writing to you with tears dripping down my cheek, i find myself at a loss of words one more time. Im gonna try 2 get up to see you sometime this weekend. I hope you're keeping an eye on the family.......including your baby neice. Keep them safe and healthy. I love you and miss you more than ever.
Bran
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c posted a condolence
Monday, September 29, 2003
good byes may seem forever
farewells are like the end
but in my heart the memory...
and there you'll always be
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Brittany Poujol posted a condolence
Sunday, September 28, 2003
hey Zammy..just a couple days ago it was 10 months.. it just feels like forever.. i miss you so much and it feels like nothin is ever the same.. this week is a verys special day.. u*ll be 18.. i wish u were here so we all could spend it with you.. this is another season and we all wish that u could be the star again.. Were all goin to try very hard, to win those jackets we've been after for.. Just wanted to say hey and i know your with us, watchin down..
Love you Zammy and Happy Birthday..
Barb.. my thoughts and prayers are with you forever and always
-Brittany
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Aunt Mar posted a condolence
Friday, September 26, 2003
My Dear Zammy. Katie and I were watching for the hundreth time your favorite movie over the weekend. Steel Magnolias. How incredible that you loved this movie. Every time I watch it, I hear something new. One of Julia Roberts lines, that struck me as being so profound was when she told her her mom that "she would rather have 30 minutes of wonderful, than a lifetime of nothing special". I smiled and thought of you instantly. It makes me so happy to know that you had such a wonderful life, while you were here with us. I love you Zam! XOXO aunt mar
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Friday, September 19, 2003
My Dear Zammy; Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I miss you so very much. While I know you are in a better place than those of us who still have time left here on earth, my heart still aches for you. I want you back here with all of us, but know it is not to be. While I'm waiting to join you, I'll cherrish my dreams and memories of you, forever and a day. Hugs and Kisses from here to eternity. All my love, Aunt Mar
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Sandy Day posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Dear Zam,
I have been reading some of the beautiful words written to you recently. I am glad we have this extra way to talk with you. I believe in my very soul that you are aware of everything here, and that you watch over those who love you.
You are a saint, an angel...in God's own presence! If ONLY we, still here on earth, could feel the glory that you live in every moment! I know you through your family and friends, and I have recently met two more of your friends. They all still miss you so.
Zam, please help them feel a little of the joy in which you live today...until we join you. Help your loved ones have strength in their sacrifice of not having you to see and hold. If anyone can deliver the salve of heaven's healing to their sore hearts, YOU can, Zam.
And thank you and your family for sharing all the love and tenderness, and for reminding me that everyday troubles mean nothing...but that love and hope are what really matter. Sandy Day
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Mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 3, 2003
Hay Baby:
It's been awhile since I visited. Every time I come here someone else has signed in & when I read how much you are missed by so many people who still think of you I cry all over again. You were my baby. You were my light. I miss you more than words can say & the pain & emptiness has not gotten any better. I go through my days in a fog, just waiting to go to bed at night hoping that maybe I'll dream of you or smell your sweetness one more time. I miss cuddling with you at night...... I miss watching you practice and compete. The season is about to start up again and it's just not fair that we're not there. I watch your tapes and I can't believe your not here anymore. It does not seem real. Like you were here yesterday, and gone today.......
It does not get easier and I'm not dealing with your loss very well. I try every day to forgive a little more but forgiveness is hard to come by.
I want you to rest, baby. Don't worry about me anymore. Fredo & Dave are taking care of me and I'm trying to heal myself as well. I don't mean to make you feel bad and I want you to be at peace. Sit with God, where you should be. Don't wait for me to be OK. I'll be OK when I know your at peace. I'll be better if I know your resting next to God and at the very least, He is taking care of you now that he has taken you away from us.
We've moved the computer into your room to make a room for your niece. It's gonna be a beautiful room and I wish you could be here to see it and to meet her when she comes. I only pray she has your eyes and your smile and your spirit. Your brother is very excited and I know he will be a wonderful father. Watch over him and guide him through this unknown terratory of fatherhood. He will need your watchful eyes and your protection. She will have all the love we can give to her. All the love you taught us all how to share. I miss you, baby and I will talk to you very soon.
Sleep well my angel........Mom
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Drew posted a condolence
Wednesday, September 3, 2003
Hey boo, how are you? I was just layin down and once again got you on my mind, I miss you so much, we all do. We start school today. Senior yr is here an I was thinkin about all the times at the begining of our jr yr. I had so much fun it felt like yesterday. LoL remeber when I got pulled over in the school and here you come laughin your way across the parking lot an then you asked for a ride home lol you were the highlight of my day babe... and my life! Everynight I go to sleep I close my eyes and think of that smile those eyes and ofcourse that laugh lol ...I'm so lucky to have known an angel. Watch over us all Zam, I miss you and I Love you boo.
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Mal posted a condolence
Tuesday, September 2, 2003
Zam,
Well you know as well as I do that I don't need a computer to talk to you, but I just want you to know how much I miss you. I think about you all the time......Everyone says that time will heal the pain....but it's been over nine months now and I still miss you with all my heart. I know you're looking down on us with your beautiful brown eyes and I can't wait to see you again...I know you're in a safe place and I hope that you are happy up there....I realize now that everyone will be ok in the end, no matter what. I love you and miss you babe.....life isn't the same without you....
K
Kristina posted a condolence
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
Hey Zam.. how is everything up there, well its 9 months now that you've left us, and we all miss you terribly... my friend Matt just came up Friday night,and my friend Grand Father also came up Saturday... its hard to lose friends... i just hope you can shine down on SE this year and let them win them dallas jackets.. well i just was checking in to see how your doing, and that i miss you.. and love you!!hope your doing good up there.. ill talk to ya later..
<3 Kristina Rice
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gia posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
hey babe... im trying to get to visit you soon, i wish it were closer to me. i was in the mall today and everything reminded me of you. Nic made us go in Limited Too and they had all this cheer stuff and tiny little shorts that i know you'd look so cute in. I been trying to take care of the car. Every time i drive i feel you with me, thank you for keeping me safe thus far.
vendemia is coming up in a month or so...it will be SO different this year without you. that was our spot, cuz. remember rob was gonna try to get us italian flags off the trees but we got in trouble? lol.
i love you and i miss you so much.
xoxoxoxoxo - gia
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Fredo posted a condolence
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Baby-girl.....It's been the longest 9 monthes of my life and it don't get any easier.I wish you were here w/ me now, it seems as though this emptiness will never diminish. I don't know what to do or feel anymore, I always thught I'd be the first to go w/ all the hard times I suffered, but here I sit left to face another struggle, another test, another heartache. It shoulda been me. But then I think would I want you to feel the pain that I feel now? Absolutely not, but I just can't come to grips w/ it, I can't accept it and no matter how hard I try......I find myself 10 steps behind were I was. You're neice will be here very soon, but I get angry when I think that she'll never get to know you...That she will never truley know how great you are..I pray that you are coming back to us through her, that when I look in her eyes for the first time I will see you. I'm lost still, but am searching to be found...I LOVE YOU ZAM..My heart will never beat the same, my eyes will never see the same,for my world has completely changed..So for now I'll wipe each tear off my tired wrinkled face, patiently waiting for the day you meet me @ the pearly gates....One love baby
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Dave posted a condolence
Monday, July 21, 2003
Hey honey,
I have felt you with me and in me since the day you left. While you're always in my thoughts, I've been waiting for that sign from you that things will be OK. I've been waiting to do something or feel something that I don't understand. To go with it not knowing why and then bam, there's your name written all over it.
Two weeks ago your mom and I, and well half our family were down at the deck on Saturday. We had this great waitress Karlee who reminded us so much of you. Not as much in that she looked like you but more so her personality, her presence. During the next week I was thinking of you and it struck me how nice Karlee was, I wondered if she cheered and then World Cup came to me. I don't know why I would have thought that, your mom and I did not talk to her at all about cheerleading.
This weekend we were at the deck again with the family. By some fluke, Karlee ended up being our waitress again. So I asked her, did you ever cheer? Well, to spot a cheerleader is not so difficult after loving you, but out of all the hundreds of squads, to know it was World Cup, I know you had a hand in that. Turns out Karlee's mom and Dad were sitting at the table next to us.
As your mom and I were talking on the way home about all this she turns and give's me one of your right crosses. She says, "I can't belive she talked to you".
Thank you baby, I'll talk to you soon.
Love always.
B
Brittany Poujol posted a condolence
Monday, July 7, 2003
Zammy..how are u doing up there.. i hope ur still the same as u were before.. its been 7 months and it just feels like forever.. it seems not real.. i guess we just have to rely on the memories at all the places everyone has been with you.. When I hear the word Zammy, Zam,Zambolina all these thoughts just go rushin through my head at once.. I miss you so terribly much.. I went to your grave.. its beautiful just like you are your angel and ur beetle with wings.. i looked at pictures of you when I went to your house.. always havin that gorgeous smile on your face..
- I miss you Zambolina..
-Brit
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Kirstin Bradley posted a condolence
Thursday, June 26, 2003
Zam..
It has been exactly today 7 months since you've been away. My mom always tells me that as time goes on, it will get better. BUt as i see it, every day I find myself thinking of you more and more. There's not a day that goes by i think to myself i wonder if zammie is looking over me. And i really hope you are. We all miss you terribly! I will never forget you smile. Your smile always made my day. You were my insporation and you always will be. I look up in teh sky and i just wonder how you are doing. I wish i could see you just one more time! But i will see you when i get up there! I will always love you. And the spot you have in my heat will nerv be replaced! i luv u girl!
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andrea lecklikner posted a condolence
Wednesday, June 4, 2003
Zammy..hows my angel doin up there? ive been thinkin about u alot latley im still prayin every night that ur ok and happy wherever you are..i know ur watchin over me..i just wish u were here to experiance it all with me..not that we havent done enough bad things for one lifetime haha..i went and saw ur family the other day..i saw a part of you in everyone of them..i was just waitin for you to come down the steps and yell at us for telling ur mom our many adventures lol of all the things we werent supposed to be doing..but guess what zam as much as we thought we got away with..yea ur mom knew it all haha guess we werent as slick as we thought but it felt nice to sit there and tell ur many stories and just smile knowing u had such a great affect on all of our lives..well im missing you more and more each day and cant wait to see those big brown eyes again rest in peace babygirl i love u
U
Unknown posted a condolence
Thursday, May 29, 2003
Zam,
We all were mad and sad
When He took You from us
But what we do know
Is that You are safe at home
Laying in his comfy arms
There he holds You tight
Never to let You fall
Or tremble through the night
Your Mother and Father are
deeply crushed
At the lost of your spirit
So you have a job to do
Take their minds and clear it
Brush the clouds away so the sun
can shine through
Brighten up their day
And watch them as they bloom
We all had the up most love for
You
So we will reunite when we join
You above
Lots of Love Forever and Ever
Z
S
Stephanie Reed posted a condolence
Monday, May 26, 2003
Zammy,
Today is May 26th. It has now been six months since your precious self has gone on to a better place. I miss you. I stand in the gym and stare blankly at the floor where you did your last scorpian. It was beatiful too. And you doubled down. This past season has been soo tough. I wish that you were there by my side like the year before. I'm back on small seniors again. I think this year will be even harder than the last. We're graduating baby. We finally came to the last year we'd be under Thepia's wing.
You know how over time things start to heal? My heart is still shattered and I don't think I'll ever be the same. I miss you soo much sometimes it hurts. I must think about you ten times a day. I went to see your mommy the other day. She's doin real good Zam. She misses you alot too. Guess what? Me and Christina are gonna go tryout at Louiville for ya. I doubt we'll make the team... I'm sorry I didn't write to you sooner but I couldn't. I guess I'm still thinking your here and I'm gonna see you at the next practice with your stupid spandex and shorts fallin everyother time you tried to land that full. You almost had it. Any way I just wanted to say Hi and tell that I miss you. Be my guardian Angel baby... I love you*
L
Lindsay posted a condolence
Sunday, May 25, 2003
Zammy~
Hey Hunny. It has now been 6 months since you have left us. Not a day goes by where I do not think about you. I know that you are okay and that you are watching down over all your family and friends. You're everyones beautiful angel! We all miss you so much but I know that there is a reason for everything. We will all be together again someday, but until then watch over us.
Love,
Lindsay
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Joanna posted a condolence
Sunday, May 25, 2003
Zammy~
Hey Sweetheart! I can't believe it has been 6 months..There is not a day that goes by that your friends don't think about you! I am always waiting for you in lunch to come up to me and eat my food while you are waiting for your table to get called hehe ...I miss you hun and your stories I know I will see you again sometime soon till then I love you
~ Jo~
Z
Zam's Mom posted a condolence
Friday, May 23, 2003
Hi Baby:
Today is Friday 5/23. Monday is Momorial Day, 5/26. Exactly 6 months since you left me. Memorial day will have new meaning for me this year. I hope I can get through it without to many tears. It has been a difficult road for me. Life has left my body and sole and I just wait to see you again. Christen told me I have to forgive God before you can visit me. I'm trying, Baby. It's not easy. I still don't see the reason for taking you from us. I'll try to work it out within myself so you can visit me. Aunt Mar had a dream about you the other morning. You were with Michael, Uncle Eddie and all my Grandparents. She says you all were together,taking care of each other and happy. I hope & pray that that's true. I could not live thinking you were alone and afraid.
You know, your gonna be an aunt. We just found out it's a girl. We are hoping Andrea let's us name her Isabella Alexandra. Her due date is September 29th. Maybe she'll be a little late and have her on October 3rd, your birthday. I wish you were here to see her. I hope she looks like you. I hope she has your eyes and your smile and your spirit and your personality. Maybe somehow she can bring me a small amount of peace although nothing will ever replace you in my heart.
I see you everywhere I go and think about you every minute of the day. I miss your smell, your kisses and your hugs. I miss your personality and your temper. I have not yet touched your room. I have not looked you your secrete box. I have found some letters that you wrote to me, but never gave me. Lauren says you are leaving them now for me to find. They are beautiful letters that say things you were never able to tell me. Things that were in your heart but could not be said. I cherish these letters and will keep them forever.
Watch over us, my Daughter. Keep your brother safe and sound. Most of all, please try to visit me. I just want to see you once more to know that your safe and happy. I will love you forever...........
Mom
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Drew posted a condolence
Friday, May 9, 2003
Hey sweety I'm sorry for not writing you, I love you so much, so much has happend and I miss talkin to you and hearing your voice. It's ok though I know I will see you again someday. I love you boo!!!
C
Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Monday, May 5, 2003
Zam-
I still think of you daily. Your picture hangs on my wall and in my locker. Everyone who sees your picture up here says how beautiful you are.I wish I would have visted more. I will be coming down soon and I will visit you. I'll bring you flowers too. I pray for you and your family.
B
Bran posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
Zammy,
A lot of time has passed since the last time i wrote you. I knew you your whole life, and even though i would see you twice or three times a year, i feel selfish to want to see you one more time. My mom and dad visited you today. Mom said she left you purple flowers, because she couldnt find blue. I've seen your mom like three times since you passed. Everytime i see her i find myself thinking of the times you would take the ride up to our house with her and we would just hang out, i miss those days, i miss you, and i wish i knew that you were REALLY watching over all of us. Five months have gone by and they say time heals all, but i find it hurting more and more everytime i think of you. You're mom used to say that we would get married, and i always think what if............ I heard about your mom, dave, and fredo's tattoo's, and i really wanna get one too. I think i might get an angel on my ankle with your name under it. As the weeks and months pass, i think of things i would say to you if you were here right now, things that would probably take up a whole book, yet now as i am trying to write them down i find myself at a loss of words. I hear songs from time to time about people that have passed and it brings me to tears instantly. The song that hurts the most is the one my aunt sang at your funeral, one of your favorite songs,i cried histerically that day and i cry every single time i hear it......and I look to the sky all of the time thinking about you and hoping that you are happy and wanting to see you again. Prom is coming up next week; things have been hectic the past couple of weeks, and yet i still find myself wondering what if.........what if YOU were my prom date, i know dozens of my friends would come up to me throughout the night telling me how beautiful you are. The only thing that holds me together is knowing that i will see you again........sometime.......soon. I love you and miss you a lot.
k
kirstin posted a condolence
Sunday, April 27, 2003
Zammie,
as im writting this,it has been 5 months since you've been gone. i cant believe that i don't see your face anymore. when i was on the b-52's i always looked up to you and told my mom i wanted to be a flyer like u and be as good as a cheerleader u were. when u were on x-plosion..thats when u taught me how to love teh sport. i was able to watch u smile when u were on the floor. and just seeing ur face smile, made me soo happy. the reason i want to be the cheerleader u were, is the way u loved it so much, watching you up in the air fighting for your stunts, made me want to always fight for my stunts. this year when i cheered i made sure i did my very best for you. i just want to thank u for making me the cheerleader that i m today. i just wanted to be able to say goodbye to u, everytime i look up in the sky i think of u, and how much i miss u. i cant wait until i see ur face again. i will always love u! thanks for everything.
B
Brittany Poujol posted a condolence
Thursday, April 24, 2003
wow...It will be exactly 5 months on Saturday..Jeez Zammy I miss you so much..it hurts me inside when i think that ur not here anymore..i miss seeing ur beautiful smile when i walk in at cheerleadin.. i miss hearing your sweet kind voice.. i miss your ringlets of curls..and most of all I miss your Mac n Cheese dinners you made for me.. Jekeyll Island was pretty scary for me and what happened at the dinner.. i miss you Zammy and not one day goes by where I look up to u and juss think of all the memories we shared..
*a GoLdEn HeaRt StOpPeD BeaTiNg*
*ZaM NoW LaYs To ReSt*
*GoD BroKe OuR HeaRtS To PrOvE*
*He OnLi TaKES ThE BeSt*
*LoVe YoU*
*BriT*
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Annette posted a condolence
Monday, April 21, 2003
On saturday it will be 5 months since you've been gone Zam, and over those past 5 months not one day has gone by where I don't think of you. You were a beautiful, outgoing girl that lived your life the way you wanted to live it. I can't believe that we all had to say good-bye to someone so young and so close to us. I still remember that summer we were down the shore, you me and lauren just walking around Ocean City being crazy little teenage girls lol. You were one of the most perfect girls and you will forever be in my heart. I love ya girl. See you at heavens gates some day.
A
Aunt Donna B posted a condolence
Friday, April 18, 2003
Dearest Zam,
My heart just aches with sadness, my tears still flow. Our family circle has been broken, a link is gone forever from our chain.
Though we're parted for awhile, I know we'll all meet again. Angel, I miss you so much, as you are one of the few people that could ever make me laugh, and you are still doing that for me, because everytime I think of some of our times together, through my sadness, I can smile and recall what an awsome spirit you had. The hole in my heart will be there forever but I take comfort in knowing that you are our guardian angle, always with us, and watching over our families. I Love You Zammy....Aunt Donna
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Dad posted a condolence
Wednesday, April 16, 2003
Hey baby,
You were always the thorn in my side. Here I am at work, heavy into a project and here you come into my thoughts. God I miss you.
So they say life goes on. Life is so upside down without you, yet somethings stay the same. You were constantly making me do things I didn't want to do. I would drop everything for you, hate myself for being such a push over but then with just a smile I knew exactly what I was doing and yes sucker was always my middle name.
Well try this one. When would you ever expect to see me with a tattoo? Anything for love and yes honey I can see you smile.
C
Cristelli posted a condolence
Monday, April 7, 2003
Zam i stoped by your grave the other day well me and my friends walked threw the cemetary and we were so scared but i wanted to see it and i did when i was walkin threw the cemetary i was fine a little bit scared but i got threw it because i knew you were with me helping me get to you and when i got to your grave i started shaking because i knew you were watching down on us and i saw your grave and it was so beautiful and it was just for you Zam. not a day goes by that i am not thinkin about you and i keep thinking that this cant be real but it is and i just wish you were here cause i miss you so much and every body misses you and they want you here with them. why did you have to go ZAm you were such a talented girl jus livin your dream, being a cheerleader but then god took you away and I know that was for a reason because he needed a beautiful angel and he gets what he wants and he got you. I can still remember the first time i saw you, you had the biggest smile on your face, and I remember when my brother had to go out and it was just you and me at my house we watched a movie and just sat there and we were talkin for about an hour. i got close to you that night and every other night you were over my house i miss you zam and i wish you were here
RIP ZAM OCTOBER 3,1985-
NOVEMBER 26,2003
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lauren posted a condolence
Sunday, March 30, 2003
zam,
there is not a day that goes by that i dont think about you and how much i desperately miss you. even thou i know you're in a better place and you are happier than ever, i still have the question "why" as everyone does. you are so precious and beautiful, i dont know why u had to leave us. everyone says it will get easier with time, but..that has yet to come. death is only painful for the survivors but i would give anything to hug u one last time. i love you and i will always-see u when i get there
F
Fredo posted a condolence
Monday, March 24, 2003
God forgive me for my sins, But I resent you for taking my baby sister. Why, she didnt deserve this. Its been about 4 months and the pain is greater then its ever been. My heart is broken and no matter how hard I try to find the pieces, They are no where to be found.Im on a blind mission and until my time to go comes, I will remain blind-folded. I dont feel strong enough to do this, but some strength inside of me seems to be fighting for one more breath, one more step, because I feel weak, and so tired that Im so tired of being tired. Watch over me Zam, cause I feel alone and cold, protect me from myself. I love you baby.
Love your broken hearted brother.
Fredo.....
D
Dave posted a condolence
Wednesday, March 5, 2003
Hey honey,
I haven't written you in a while, as a matter of fact not since the very beginning. You were such a part of everything I used to do, now I find myself looking for purpose. When you were with us, I worked to give you anything you needed, I went to the gym so that I knew if you ever needed me I would be strong enough to protect you. I went to the shore....well sorry I did that for me, but when you didn't come with us, we did give you the house to yourself, so there's something.
You know your mom has put up such a strong front. She is trying to live her life without you. We continue on and with every curve in the road we arrive at another memory, another reason to miss you. I suspect we will be on this road until we meet up with you again. I promise I will be dressed as to not embarrass you. I'll check with your brother first.
As I wrote to you in the beginning, as far as I am concerned I have it easier then your mom, I see you in her eyes, I hear you in her voice, I feel you in her hugs. Zammy I know you are watching down on us, so honey please don't be sad to see you mom in pain. She will be OK as she is now my purpose.
I love you so much.
Dave
Z
Zammy's Mom posted a condolence
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
Hi Baby:
It's been exactly three months since you left me. Three months of the most painful and heart breaking time of my life. I want to see you. I want to smell you. I want to see that beautiful smile. I want to feel you laying next to me in my bed watching the music awards or some other show you were interested in. Those were the most presious memories of my life. Just me and you, cuddling in my bed making fun of the wierdo's on TV.
We were supposed to be in Dallas last weekend. This weekend is Orlando. The Seniors didn't do so well in Dallas. They had a few injuries, but they cheered hard for you. This year is dedicated to you. They all miss you so much.
I don't know how to go on without you baby. I go through the day in a fog and can't wait till it's over. It's like I'm wishing my life away so I can be with you sooner. It hurts so much Zam. I hope you are safe and happy. I hope that you are looking out for us and waiting for us to join you. So many events have passed without you being there. I want to believe your an angel now. I want to believe your safe and watching over us. Please help me believe. Please tell me that your ok. Send me a sign..... anything so I know your ok. You always got mad at me for worrying so much. For the past three months that's all I've done.
I miss you baby. I will always miss you. I will always love you. You will always be my baby, my sunshine, my Zambolina. Be safe.
Love you forever,
Mom
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aunt mar posted a condolence
Thursday, February 13, 2003
Dearest Zam. I miss you so so much. This giant whole in my heart is so empty. The minutes, hours, days, weeks and months go by and by. Yet I still find it so hard to accept that you are gone. Many of us dream about you often and we like telling each other our dreams of you. I hear you talking to me all the time and I cherish those moments. I found a really cute picture of you and fredo sitting on my lap. you were about 2 and Fre was 3 or 4. Both of you are cracking up laughing. I remember when this picture was taken of us. It seems like yesterday. Tomorrow will come and go and soon enough we will see you again. knowing this is the only thing that helps us get through each day. i miss you and love you with all my heart. Aunt Mar XOXOXOXO
B
Barbara Bucci posted a condolence
Monday, February 10, 2003
Zam,
It's been a while, today is February 10, 2003. I visited you today with Jon, he misses you a whole lot, he said it doesn't seem real yet. I wish I could've been there when you were laid down to rest, but you're up above now looking down upon us so I'd like to believe you knew where and why i wasn't there. I've heard that Bree Sharp song it is very beautiful just like you. The other day someone in my family mentioned my mom breaking her ankle a few years ago two days before Christmas, I was with you at your house when I got the news. That night I also ate Chinese food at your house for the first time, steak and broccoli, I am crazy about Chinese food. Anyway, for Christmas I gave Jon a stand up cross its very nice he'd like to put it at your resting place we are also planning on dedicating a star to you and giving it to your mom we think she'd like that. You are greatly missed and will never never be forgotten.
Love Barb and Jon Bucci
g
gia posted a condolence
Thursday, January 16, 2003
zam.. i thought that time would help me heal but so far it hasnt. i still think and dream about you every single day. i miss u cuz. i truly do. you have become such a huge part of who i am today and i guess, in a way, that is a blessing because there is no one else who id want to occupy so much of my thoughts. thanks for helping me out on the driving test babe... i got the L!!!!!!!!! i promise to take good care of your whip.
i love you zambolina. xoxoxooxox i miss you. see you soon.
D
DIT posted a condolence
Thursday, January 16, 2003
Zam,
Ever since we were babies me you Fredo, Lauren, and Buddy have been raised together as brothers and sisters. Even though you're younger than me, I've always looked up to you and admired your flawless beauty both inside and out, and your outlook on life. It made me feel good to know that you would call me when you wanted my advice on something or if you had some big secret that only I could know about... For whatever reason. It was a mutual thing that we shared with eachother that will be greatly missed. I remember after every Christmas morning, we would call and tell eachother what we got...... And what we didn't get! Whenever the family got together we would sit and eat... and eat, and eat!! And then say, why the hell did we just eat so much.... and why can't we stop? {I miss the little things But I do believe,as a promise from me to you, that you, God, or something up there, has given me the strength to think positive, the strength to stay strong, and the strength to remember the good times and to believe that even though you're not here,I can still talk to you, and you can still listen. I remember asking you to somehow keep in touch, and since then, you are in my dreams, and I can feel your presence and I am truely grateful for the blessing you've given me. You are always on my mind, you are always in my prayers, and you will never, ever be forgotten. I love you as my cousin, my sister... My best friend.
DIT {christen
To Fredo, Aund B, Uncle Dave, Uncle Alfredo, and Family, stay strong because even though Zams not here, she is deffinetly with us... just believe.
Every one is different in thier own little ways,
But Zammy was special and in my mind it stays,
How she could put a smile on anyones face, or walk into a room full of people and brighten up the whole place.
Her smile was contageous, and her personality was outrageous,
These are just a few things that made Zam who she was and nobody could change this.
Her big brown eyes would sparkle and shine, And her lashes alone would grasp attention and make boys loose thier mind.
If I could take her place with God that's where I now would be, not only because I love her, but because I know she'd do it for me.
There was always something special about Zam, you could see it in her eyes,
I've now come to the conclusion....
She was an Angel in disguise.
A
Andrea Lecklikner posted a condolence
Wednesday, January 8, 2003
Zam..wow where do i start i have a million things to say to u right now but when it comes down to it im speechless..remember that night b4 u went into the hospital we went to the mall and u told me that im like the only person u can relate to at that moment i wish i could of told that that u meant the world to me and u were a great best friend and that i loved u and that i needed u in my life more then u could ever know..the night i went to see u in the hospital i held ur hand and made u a promise that no matter wat the outcome was u meant everything to me and i would never foget u and i will always be the one person u can relate to i will keep that promise intill the day im with u again i have no doubt that im gonna walk up to u at the gates of heaven patiently waiting for me with that beautiful face and those big brown eyes then i can say that ive expericanced the greatest moment of my life..my life will never again be complete without u in it its seems like im living to die and see u again theres so much i need to tell u there so much more i need to say but u taught me alot and ive learned not to take things for granted cuz u never kno when they'll be gone..some of the most precious moments in life ive spent with u some of my best memories and best nights were with u just kno that u with never be forgotten and ull be forever missed babygirl and ill always be ur lil panga adventure...R.I.P my lil angel ill see u when i get there hunni i love u...
*Life aint always what it seems to be words cant express what u mean to me and even tho ur gone we still a team in the future cant wait to see when u open up the gates for me..every step i take every move i make every single day everytime i pray ill be missin u thinkin of the day when u went away what a life to take what a bond to break ill be missin u..its kinda hard withchu not around kno u heaven smilin down watchin us..till the day we meet again in my heart is where ill keep ya friend memeries give me the strenght i need to proceed strenght i need to believe wish i could turn bak the hands of time..still cant believe ur gone give ne thing to hit half ur breath i kno ur still livin life after death*
D
Danny & Maria posted a condolence
Thursday, January 2, 2003
To Barb, Alfredo, Dave & family.
Words could not even begin to explain how i truly felt the day that I heard the sad news on Zammy. Fredo when i saw you I felt an extreme amount of joy to see what a great young man you have turned out to be. You looked so great my dear. Upon talking to you & listening to the news that you gave me ref. Zammy I became frozen, i honestly did not have any further words. I was in a state of shock. All i could think of was the bundle of joy that Zammy was and all the joy she brought to us all who knew her & those she came in contact with. I ask myself how could this happen so suddenly to such a fine, and beautiful young lady full of vim and vigor, she brought joy to all of those indivduals she knew. I know we are not to question the lord, honestly it is the first thing i did when i got into my car and burst into tears. Our condolences go out to you all as well as the family. I can not explain why this has happened. As a christian i know the lord works in mysterious ways. This is still something i can't understand though. If ever their is anything that i can do to be of some help to your family please don't hesitate in contacting anyone of us. The pain that your family is still experiencing i know is so immense. I wish i could alliviate some of that pain. I as a friend I still cry myself when i think of her and your family. Alfredo i cried that evening of Christmas Eve when you told me. I still cry when i think of this. I don't know how much worst this pain is as a parent, i know it isn't easy for me as a friend. My thoughts & prayers will always be with you and your family. I am so so so sorry for your lost. Do remember one thing and never forget she was a god sent Angel and she is now a gaurdian angel to all of those she came in contact with. She will always be remembered in our family and never forgotten for she was very very special.
The Maldonado Family
Danny, Maria, Jazzy, & Josh
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Natalie and Steve posted a condolence
Friday, December 27, 2002
Unfortunately, we never had the opportunity to personally meet Zam but from reading these messages, she must have been a wonderful person. If she is anything like her brother, she must have had a heart of gold. Alfredo, we appreciate that in all of your anguish and pain, you took the time to come to the hospital to visit Steve. It meant so much to us knowing what you have been through lately. Always remember and take comfort that she ended her time here on earth knowing you as you are today. We missed out on meeting a wonderful young girl but her memory will live on through others. They had to make room and a pair of wings for a new angel in Heaven.
A
Annette Savitz posted a condolence
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Our heart felt condolences to your family. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
With our deepest sympathy,
The Savitz family Elena's aunt and cousins
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Cryssi Daley posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
For 11 years i knew you Monkey. I thought it was such a long friendship, but now i know it wasn't long enough. your beautiful face will live with me forever, and that laugh will always ring in my ears. i'll never forget all the memories we made, or all the fun times we shared. i've gained a guardian angel and i've lost a best friend. i'll never forget you Zambolina lol. i love you...
A golden heart stopped beating...a gorgeous face laid to rest...God broke my heart to prove to me...He only takes THE BEST..love Cryssi
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Cryssi Daley posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 25, 2002
For 11 years i knew you Monkey. I thought it was such a long friendship, but now i know it wasn't long enough. your beautiful face will live with me forever, and that laugh will always ring in my ears. i'll never forget all the memories we made, or all the fun times we shared. All the Football Fridays of my Senior year were spent with you...Mushy, Dale, Danielle, Genna BFFL... i've gained a guardian angel and i've lost a best friend. i'll never forget you Zambolina... i love you...
Merry Christmas beautiful...i hope u like ur flowers..they're the perfect color pink almost as gorgeous as you...LOVE YOU~DALE
I'll find my way to Heaven
I'll take the path you took
I'll walk right through ur footsteps
Every cranny and every nook
Your gorgeous smile will light the way
Your little giggle will ring in my ears
The memory of u will make every day
And I'll always smile through my tears
You left me early
I'll see you late
U'll be waiting at the pearly
White gate
By Cryssi Daley...in loving memory of Alexandra Alvarez
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Charlie Kirkwood posted a condolence
Monday, December 23, 2002
Barbara and David,
I'm a friend of Laura Gdowick. During a conversation with her she told me, with great difficulty, of your daughter and of your recent tragic loss. She mentioned this web site and I asked if she would give me the address. I read many of the condolence letters that people wrote and can only believe that she was a spectacular person who was well respected and incredibly loved.
I hope and pray that one day you both will have peace in your mind and soul.
A
Ant Cristelli's sister posted a condolence
Saturday, December 21, 2002
Zamm when my brother first brought you over to my house i knew that you were special and that i would become like a sister to you and thats what happened and we had such a great time together and i remember when you watched me when i was sick and we got really close that night and we all will remember you forever and that will never end but when i heard you were in the hospital i cried but when i heard that you had passed away i was in school and i tried to be strong and brave but i couldnt i lost my best friend and then i just remembered all the good times we had together i knew you since i was 4 and i clicked to you when i saw you you were so preety i thought that i wanted to grow up jus like you and i kinda am just like you and all the memories still last and i will never forget them and i will never forget you. when you walked into any room you can light any ones face up and make them smile so fly high and keep on smiling as you watch down on us. Zamm you are in a better place now watching down on all of us protecting us from what ever we have to face and you can guide us along to finish our jobs
M
Melanie posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
Words cannot express how much I miss that bright smile and hearing your laugh at practice. I always loved seeing you, just seeing your face could brighten up my day, or even just talking to you. I remember how much you used to yell at me for the stupid stuff that I would get upset about and somehow through the yelling and telling me what an idiot I was, you never failed to make me feel better. I owe you so much for that and I would give my life for you so that you could come back home to your family and friends and help others the way you helped me. I'll never forget you and the lessons that you taught me. I'm sure this hole inside of me will heal in time, but you will be in my heart forever and I'll be looking forward to seeing you again, up in heaven. I love you Zammy.
To Zam's family I'm very sorry that you have to go through this, I would do anything to get her back for you and ease your pain, but unfortunatly I cannot, but I can tell you that if there is anything you ever need that I can do for you I would be ready and willing to do it at any time.
*Love Always*
Melanie Meade
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Kristina Rice posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
Zammy.. i cant belive this happened. to me it still isnt real. i feel im in a really bad horror movie that i cant escape or a bad dream that i cant awaken from..but i just gotta remember your in a better place smileing down on us and watching us. Thanks for the advice you gave me, even tho i didnt really kno you, you were the most prettiest, nicest , kind hearted girl i will ever know. im happy i got to share the time i did with you. The words you told me that day i will never forget it will live on in my heart for the rest of my life. I know when time comes you will be there to welcome the Spirit Explosion Family with open arms. And i will seee you when i get there. I love you and i miss you terribly.
To the Alvarez family, words cant express how sorry i am for you . My condolences are with your whole family through this. Im glad i got to spend time with your wonderful daughter, she was truely one of a kind..thank you.Well if you ever need anything just email me and i will try , even though i live in Delaware! im always here.
RIP ZAMMY ALVAREZ 10.3.85 - 11.26.02
a golden heart stoppd beating
hard working hands at rest
god broke our hearts
to prove he only takes the best
*this seasons for you babe..your alwasy in my heart and prayers*
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Marian posted a condolence
Monday, December 16, 2002
Oh Zammy, we all miss you soooo much. it just doesn't seem real... I keep expecting to wake up from this nightmare.. We're all walking around in a fog... Wondering what to do, what to say... The tears just don't seem to stop...precious moments that we shared keep coming to mind and for that I am so grateful to you. We talk with you now in spirit and memories... and I wanted to ask if you would please do two things for us. The first is to ask God to help us get through each day and the second is if you could please find my son and take care of him until I get there. He missed out on all the love, laughs, parties, sunday dinners & great vacations that we shared, so you'll have lots of things to share with him. I love you Zammy. XOXO aunt mar
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Brandon posted a condolence
Monday, December 16, 2002
Zam,
It took me a little while to pull myself together to sit down and write this but here it goes..............it seems like just yesterday when me, you and fre were little and you used to always wanna play with me and fre but of course you were a girl. I was too young to even think about how I would grow out of that stage and all of us, even though seldom do we see each other, would grow closer and closer with a family-like bond. I could remember the day my mom got the call about you going into the hospital. I didnt really think much of it at the time because i was so used to fre going into the hospital and coming out a few days later virtually fine. The serious of the situation didnt really set in until the viewing when i had seen pictures of how full of happiness your life was and then i began to wonder why god would do such a thing and why such a beautiful person wouldnt be getting the privelage to live a full, amazing life. The only answer I have gotten to this day is that god has a reason for everything and i began to believe that god had a better plan for you up there. I begin to think of some more memories I have of all of us hangin out together like last year when you guys came up to the mountains with us. Sometimes i think im a little selfish to want to see you one last time, and i hate myself for not putting time aside to ask my mom to make plans with your mom. Anyway.........now that tears are rolling down my cheek as i recall some of the memories we had i know that god has made a home for you up there and i know your watchin down on your mom, dad, fre, and david and helping them stay strong through all of this. I love you babe...............
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Fre posted a condolence
Sunday, December 15, 2002
My Dearest Sister,
I sat in your room last night til 5 in the mourning and could do nothing but cry. I miss you more then life itself, I would die to bring you back. Mommy misses you so much and she is, no, we are lost w/out you.I just wanna hold you and protect you from harms way, thats what my job was, and now the physical responsibility has diminished.But the emotional and spiritual will always live on, til the day I join you in heaven. Get this, you'll be my big sister and I'll be you're little brother. As much as we fought, as siblings do, you were my best friend. I'm so proud you got to see the man that
I have become and forgot about the walking nightmare I once was. I want you back Zam but i can't have you, so through me you will live on, I dedicate my life to you and will put your heart and my strength into everything I do, I love you baby, FOREVER and ALWAYS....FREDO..
THERE'S NOT ENOUGH STARS IN THE SKY TO AMOUNT TO THE PAIN THAT I FEEL INSIDE. THERE'S NOT ENOUGH WATER IN THE WORLD TO EQUAL THE TEARS THAT I SHED FOR THIS LITTLE GIRL. THERE'S NOT NEARLY ENOUGH PIECES TO MEND MY BROKEN HEARTED SOUL, FOR YOU WERE THE ONLY THING THAT EVER MADE ME FEEL REAL OR WHOLE. YET OF ALL THE THINGS THERE IS NOT ENOUGH OF, YOU HAVE BLESSED ME WITH GALAXIES OF LOVE.. REST IN PEACE ZAM AND I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I GET THERE...
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Debby Wehner posted a condolence
Saturday, December 14, 2002
Barb, Dave, Alfredo Sr., Alfredo Jr. and family,
I can honestly say I can't feel the pain you have, or understand it. Losing a child is not the way it is supposed to happen, and none of us will ever understand this, I do pray each day that God will give you comfort in what has happened. I wish I could help to ease the pain but I can only make myself available for what you may need in what I am capable of. I do know that I saw an incredible LOVE with young people coming together to comfort one another in a way that is undiscribable. These kids truly loved Zam and I know they would have given their very lives to see her remain here. I also saw a community of old and young teachers and students parents and children bond in a way that only can occur through the love that we should have for one another each and every day always and not only in a crisis situation. Zam has become a part of every ones life that she has touched, and I can almost gaurantee that she is now a part of all our families and that you will see her memory through pictures hanging in everyone of these young adults homes and I am sure they will remain there for all their lives. I pray that you will find some comfort in knowing these things and that it will help to ease your pain, even if it is only for a moment. With much love, Debby
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Frankie posted a condolence
Thursday, December 12, 2002
Zam,
I don't need a computer to talk to you. I still want to just write down "I LOVE YOU, AND I SEE YOU ON BETTER DAYZ".
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Apryl posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
Well Zammy it's been hard but I am getting stronger with time. I luv you so much and I know that u are watching us all..I wont forget all our rides to summer school..I would pick you up every day and u would come outside half asleep and say ape I cant do this today and we would drag ourselves there...we got in so much trouble everyday haha..or how about the party where u had to squeeze in my trunk!! we kept asking you if u were ok because we knew lil zammy was stuffed in my car..haha~I didnt know that WaWa would be my last memory of you but I am glad it was positive..you ran up to my car and gave me the biggest smile ever~that wont ever leave my mind~! Please watch over all of us~
My Love goes out to her family~
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lauren posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
My Zambolina,
i dont know what to say..except that i miss you and love you with all my heart and soul-always. You were my sunshine since the day you were born. i used to play with you like you were a doll, and that is exactly what you are. you will always be perfect to everyone who knew you and i still cant believe you're not here with us. between all of us, there is no separation between siblings and cousins-you are my sister, my cousin, my friend and my heart. i know i will see you soon but not soon enough. i wanna eat broccoli-rabe with you and drive to frigantine, and take you to get school supplies, and prom dresses and everything else we have been throu that i will always cherish..even as i sit here in tears, i know God has a plan for everyone, and i know he plans for all of us to live happily ever after in heaven together-i love you and i miss you, always and forever- your "favorite" cuz-laur
-to all my family, we always have eachother even thru the toughest times as these are-i love you all
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Courtney Griffin posted a condolence
Monday, December 9, 2002
I moved to Rhode Island a few years ago, but I still talked to and loved Zam. I continue to miss you. I am so sorry to the entire Alvarez family.
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Annie Daley posted a condolence
Sunday, December 8, 2002
Zam,
I can't believe that you are gone
yet, God I know took you for a
special reason. I remember all the
good times we had in school and at
cheerleading competitions, and how
you were one of the most
inspiring, funny people I have ever
met. I know you are looking down on
each and everyone of us with those
Big Brown eyes. I miss you so much
and I can't wait to see you again
in heaven. see ya when I get there.
My condolences to her family
Love,
Annie
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The Britt Family posted a condolence
Saturday, December 7, 2002
I still remember the first time I saw Zam a few short years ago. She made such a presence on the senior squad as a flyer, I just had to ask what her name was.
Zammy had a magnificent personality with a smile to match, and exuberance for life I cannot describe. If it was Friday and my turn to pick up Sara and Zam from cheerleading practice, Zam was no sooner in the car before she was on her cell phone, calling her friends and making plans for the night. I couldn?t imagine wanting to go out after 3 hours of grueling practice, but missing a night out with her friends was not an option!
When I think of Zam and her life so young released to heaven, the hurt is just too great for words. My heart goes out to Barb, Senor Alvarez, and Dave, and all of Zammy?s family and friends. May each of you find comfort in happy memories and the knowledge that Zam lived life to the fullest.
I think of Zam when I read this:
They that love beyond the world cannot be
separated by it. Death cannot kill what never dies.
William Penn
My God bless you and keep you in His loving care.
Naomi, Graeme, Sara, Christian and Rachel Britt
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Pastor Steve Burton posted a condolence
Saturday, December 7, 2002
To Zammie's family,
I am on the pastoral staff at Living Waters Church. I had the wonderful opportunity to pray with many of Zammie's friends a few days before she passed away. I have rarely seen so much concern, care and love for a friend as I saw that day. The Holy Spirit moved a a big way to comfort and strengthen everyone. I extend my sincere condolences to the entire family and friends. The Apostle Paul said to die is to be with Christ, when we are saved and know Him as Savior. We will see Zammie again. Our love to all, Pastor Steve
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Ryan Sims posted a condolence
Friday, December 6, 2002
Zam was one of the nicest and sweetest girls I have ever met. She would do anything for anyone even if she didn't really know them and that is what made her special. She knew what her purpose was on this earth and she fullfilled this to the very end. Zam I know that you will be missed here on earth, but you are in a better place right now and you will not be forgotten as long as we shall live...
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Lisa Polidoro posted a condolence
Thursday, December 5, 2002
Zam,
GOD. It's been too long since the last time i've seen or even spoken to you. I'm so sorry I haven't kept in touch with you. Everytime I think of you I picture us sitting in my basement playing barbies for hours at a time,laying around sucking our thumbs and seeing you every morning when my mom would drive us to school. We had a lot of fun back then and I only wish that we would have kept in touch. I will never forget you...
Barb, Fredo and family,
My thoughts and prayers are with you. If you would like talk or need a shoulder to cry on I am ALWAYS here for you.
Love,
Lisa Polidoro
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Dottie posted a condolence
Thursday, December 5, 2002
Zam~
I never thought this day would come so soon, where we would have to say goodbye to one of our friends! I just keep aksing god why, why now,why zam? Zam you were a beautiiful girl and you were always happy. Those memories will stay with eveyone forever! You will be in my heart for the rest of my life. I don't understand why this had to happen but this will make eeryone stronger! Not one day goes by that I don't think about you! I miss you and I will always love you. My prayers go out to Zammy's family. I love you girl !!
Love Always, HotDot
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zam's mom posted a condolence
Wednesday, December 4, 2002
I remember when Zam was born. She was the most magnificant child you have ever seen. She was loved by everyone who laid eyes on her. She stayed that way over the years. She grew more prescious with evey passing day. My heart has been broken and I will never again look on life as I once did. My faith has been tested these past few weeks. I am angry at God for taking my child. I don't know if I will recover from the pain and heartache of this loss but I know one thing: Zam lived her life as SHE wanted. No one was dictating her activities. She would have had it no other way..... This fact does not console me, but my hope is that everyone who knew Zam will work a little harder, live a little happier and care a little less about the unimportant things in life. She loved her friends, she loved cheerleading, she loved her family.... And for these reasons, God has chosen to take her as an angle. Perhaps one day I will understand. Perhaps one day I will forgive. For now, I thank all of you for your support and love.
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Gia posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 3, 2002
Zam...
I am still in disbelief. I keep expecting for your name to pop up on my buddy list, telling me about how you were punished and bored. I love you so much and I miss you already. Don't think I forgot about the weekend you were supposed to spend with me at LaSalle \=
I miss your beautiful smile, jamming out to BILLIE, and hearing about your competitions. I miss being jealous of your curls that were always perfectly scrunched. I miss talking to you and you asking me, "WHAT?".
I miss all of these things but atleast I know now that you are lighting up the heavens with your beautiful smile...making the angels forget about a night time.
xoxo, your "CUZ", Gia
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Krista S. posted a condolence
Tuesday, December 3, 2002
Zammy,
Geez i don't know where to start. We had a lot of fun together being in like every class with eachother last year. You were an awesome person who would never let anyone get the best of. There were too many funny times together and i miss you like crazy. I know your up there watching over me and everyone else. You'll always be in my heart and i will never forget anything about you. I always knew you were an angel... I love you sponky!
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Diane Ruggia posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2002
Zam, We question why the Lord has taken you so soon. We question the fairness of his decision. You were so young, so beautiful, so special. I believe in a garden of flowers, when we pick one, we pick the most beautiful. I believe he has chosen you, the most beautiful of all. Your spirit, beauty, and presence will live on in all of those who were fortunate enough to have known you. Missed but never forgotten. Keep Smiling. The Ruggia Family, Diane, Michael, Stephen & Lauren
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GENNAROSE TASCA posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2002
ZAMMY~GIRL YOU WERE A LIGHT IN EVERYONES DAY I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL I NEVER FORGET OUR 8TH GRADE PARTIES AT MY HOUSE YA WE WERE THOSE GIRLS AND STILL ARE U ARE IN MY HEART FOREVER. OH AND YOU DO LOOK LIKE JENNIFER LOPEZ BUT PRETTIER!! TOO MANY MEMORIES TO SAY THEM ALL BUT THE ONES I LOVED WERE THE ONES OF ME AND U DRIVING IN YOUR CAR FOR THE FIRST TIME BYE BABYGIRL GOD BLESS YOU!! XOXOXOXO
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Mr. Frank Indriso - OVMS posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2002
It seems just like yesterday when I met "Zam" here at Orchard Valley Middle School. You were introduced to me by your gym teacher as "Alexandra" and you were to spend time in the library since you were not participating in gym at that time.
The first time I called you "Alexandra" you were quick to point out that you wanted to be called "Zam" instead. I thought to myself what a cute nickname! I remember allowing you to use my computer daily and you leaving screensavers of Josh Harnett every day on the monitor. As soon as I deleted them there was another one put up...gee I wonder who did it? LOL
I find it very hard to accept the fact that you are no longer with us...
Today when I walked into my office at OVMS, I stared at the seat where you used to sit just about every time you were in the library. You made quite an impression upon me over the three years you spent here and I will never forget what a sweet kid you were...I am deeply saddened by your passing.
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Andrea Lecklikner posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2002
I'll See You When I get There
I never thought that one day i would have to say goodbye I'm sorry you look from Heaven And only see me cry I'm sorry that I think about you Every single day I'm sorry that I never said The things I wanted to say I miss you I love you I need you I care I cry and now I'm saying goodbye Farewell to a great person Farewell to a best friend Farewell to a life that wasn't meant to end. One day we'll be together Sitting on a star One day we'll be together One day that's not too far. Now i know its time for u to spread your wings and fly and i have to dust myself off and not cry. So even when im thinking that all of this isnt fair im just gonna look up at you and smile and say dont worry zam ill see you when i get there.
By: Andrea Lecklikner
Zam Ill see u when i get there girl ur big brown eyes are gonna light my way to heaven im missing u like crazy babe i love u sooo much
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Dan Wehner posted a condolence
Monday, December 2, 2002
Zam,
You left so fast I didn't even get to say goodbye,Now I sit up all night looking out my window wondering why,Not questioning god because I know he has a plan,Just want to know why,why Zam,But I know one day not to far,I'll meet you on that shooting star,We'll fly togeather holding hands,All day and all night we don't ever have to land,But until that time don't worry about me,Just go up them stairs and stright through them gates,One day we'll all be togeather as friends and that one special day will never end.
Zam,
Ever since thrid grade me you and jamie havent stop being friends.And now look at us 11th grade still friend if not closer then ever. You were going out with my best friend and I am going out with your best friend yea were back togeather and I heard about your little plan last weekend you guys were going go out and party as free single girls well me and chaney had the same idea. Well you know where always going to be friend and I'll see you babe when I get there.
Love Dan Wehner
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Amanda Tracy posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
*Zam*
Girl you were the happiest and most positive person I have ever met. Your smile brightened my day everyday. I remember dancing with you and Michelle last year at prom... you lit up the floor with your gorgeous features. Who am I gonna share my dresses with now? Zam I'll miss you very much and you'll forever be in my heart. Thanks for all the memories and I'm sure I will see you again someday. I know you are my angel above. I love you.
My condolences go out to all of Zam's family.
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The Deal Family posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
THE LENT CHILD
I'll lend you for a little time,
A child of mine He said,
For you to love while she lives,
and mourn when she is dead.
It may be six or seven years,
or twenty-two or three.
But will you till I call her back
take care of her for me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
and shall her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories
as solace for your grief.
I cannot promise she will stay,
since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over
in my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd lifes lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love,
nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call
to take her back again?
I fancied that I heard them say,
Dear Lord, Thy will be done.
For all the joy thy child shall bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
we'll love her while we may,
and for the happiness we've known,
will ever grateful stay.
But shall the angels call for her
much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
and try to understand.
To zam's family are thoughts and prayers are with you.
The Deal family.
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Jenn Imperato posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
Zam,
i will never forget you and you will always be in my heart. you were such an amazing girl, beautiful, and energetic. words can't even describe how you were to all of us. we had some fun memories so special i will never forget. i'll always remember you bein my little mooch at lunch last year. you will be in my heart forever. i'll be seeing you someday i can't wait hun! please watch over all of us. my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family always. i love u and miss you xoxo You will always be our little angel Zam!
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Stephanie Davies posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
Zammy-I will miss you so much. Everytime I saw you, you always had a smile on your face that was so lit up. I will never forget your gorgeous face and smile and your wonderful personallity. You tought me so many things and God is so blessed to be with such a wonderful person who lived life to the fullest. Im so glad I became freinds with you. Zam you will always be in my heart and be forever loved and forever remembered. I will see you again.
My heart goes out to your family.
LOVE YOU ZAMMY!
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Desireé Bowen posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
My deepest feelings and sympathy to Alfredo. I am only around the corner if you ever need anything or want to go to church or just to talk... I am here for you. Because I know that Zammy would love to see us talk with one another. I have utmost respect for every word you said and I believe you have the ability and courage to do anything you want in life. Always remember that people who dont support you arent your friends its the people that believe in you who are. Make Zammy proud and let her be the brightest star you make a wish on at night. Alfredo, Dave and Barbra I am here for you and will keep you in my prayers. I love you all.
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Sandy Day posted a condolence
Sunday, December 1, 2002
Dear Alfredo and Barbara,
All of our love and thoughts go out to you, David, Senor Alvarez, Sr., and all of your family.
A light as bright as Zam's can never be extinguished. She lives on in each of us, through every good and noble act and memory.
We share, in our own way, in your grief. We are at your sides always.
With love and respect,
Sandy and friends
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Danielle Carchidi posted a condolence
Saturday, November 30, 2002
Zam, I am going to miss you so much, but I know you are in a better place now. I'll never forget the fun times we had throughout the years. You're always going to be in our hearts and thoughts. I know your looking down on us from heaven and making sure we don't get into trouble or harm. You're defiantly our angel. Inspite of everything, you always live your life to the fullest. You never stop doing the things that you loved to do. For that, I admired you! It's not going to be the same without you around, but I know we'll meet again. I love you always and forever.
My prayers and thoughts go out to Zammy's family. She's always going to be with you.
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Ashley Earling posted a condolence
Saturday, November 30, 2002
"A CHEERLEADER WITH ANGEL WINGS"
Accidents happen, that's what they all say.
That's why you are gone, oh so far away.
A young life lost, to great heaven above.
Flying away like a beautiful dove.
A beautiful girl, with a thousand great friends,
None of whose hearts will ever mend.
A bright young kid, always wearing a smile;
Always willing to sacrifice and go the extra mile.
Some people talk, and yea they will chatter.
But we keep your Mom and Dad strong, that's the real matter.
A Cheerleader star, with new angel wings,
Who heaven rejoiced for, and oh, did they sing.
A friend with the biggest, most tender heart,
Will care and watch over us never really to part.
Now she is safe, and away from all harms.
But we will all miss your amazing charm.
She is whispering to us now, for she is a bird.
So everyone listen, do not utter a word.
We all have a new angel, who has so much to give.
She will shower us with love and teach us to live.
Zam, we all miss you and through it all we have hung.
Because it is true, "Only the good die young."
RIP 11/26/02
-A.EARLING
FOR ZAM... LOVE ALWAYS ASHLEY
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Mal Mullen posted a condolence
Saturday, November 30, 2002
Zam I love you more than you can imagine. I will miss you so much, but the fact that I know I'm going to see you again someday is helping me get through it. I know that you're watching down on all of us from heaven right now. You are and always will be the most beautiful girl I've ever known, inside and out. You're smile could brighten up anyone's day. I will never forget our girls night in Lindsay's room "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun". It's lonely with an empty seat next to me in History, but I know that you're in a better place now. I miss you babe and can't wait to see you again.
All of my thoughts and prayers go out to Zammy's family.
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Lindsay Murphy posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zammy you are such a strong and courageous person. I'll never forget all the memories that were shared. You have been such an insipration to me and many other people. I am going to miss you very much but I know that you are in such a better place and I know that we will all be together again someday. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. Noone can replace you and you will never be forgotten. I Love You
To Zammy's family my prayers are with you always
J
Joanna DiVenti posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zammy, sweetheart, You are an all around beautiful person . I always admired the way that you lived your life to the fullest . I can't remember one time that I saw you with out a smile on your face. I love you and miss you very much! I know that you are safe in heaven and I will see you again. I will never forget you. You will always be in my heart and i know that you will be watching over all of us until we are together again
To Zammy's family and friends you withh be in my thoughts and prayers always
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Monet Burton posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
ShaZam,
Babe I'm gonna miss you soo much. You are such a great person. It's not going to be the same without you, but you're still here in memory. You are so gorgeous and perfect in every way. Im gonna miss seing your beautiful smile everyday. I just want you to know that you boosted my self-esteem so much and I will never ever forget that. I love you and I will miss you, and you will always be in my heart.
My heart goes out to your family
I love you always ShaZam,
Mo
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Marian Guensch posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
My Dearest Zambolina, I close my eyes and see your beautiful face, your angelic face, your smiling face and sparkling eyes. Those beautiful eyes. There was something about you Zam, that just made my heart explode with joy and love for you. I am forever grateful to you for bringing so much sunshine to my life. I know you are an angel in heaven and that someday we will see each other again. Until then, know how very much I love you and I will miss you always. I love you Zam. Aunt Mar XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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familia Gotera Alvarez posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Queridisimos Alfredo, Barbara, Alfredo jr, Gabriela y demas familiares elevamos una oracion por Zam y por todos los que sufren su partida pidiendo para ella luz y consuelo y resignacion a los que la lloran. Aunque lejos compartimos este triste momento y esperamos la union familiar nos haga mas fuertes, Alfredo esperamos verte pronto en Maracaibo te queremos Evert, Lidice, Carlo, Angel y Francisco.Que Dios los bendiga
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Michelle Lavell MuSHY posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
ZammysponkyBOO, you are and will always be my bestfriend. But you know that u were more than a friend you were my sister. Your everything i needed in a friend and im glad that we have soo many memories together. I will never forget you my angle. I love you and dont know what im gonna do without u, im lost but i will find you some day. I love you soo much, you dont even know.You were a gift from god and u were my walking angle and helped me with all my promblems. There is never gonna be a day that i dont think aboutu. I love u my lil sponky! love always mushyyy
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Brittany and Ashley Poujol posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zammy, we loved you so much and now we can believe you are gone. You are in our hearts forver and when you were on Cheer Explosion I always looked up to you as a role model for me. You helped me to get through things and forever you will be missed. I would like to read something I wrote for you:
Memories
It is very hard to put into words how we feel about someone that we love, especially when that person we will no longer see, hear, talk to, or touch. We must rely on the memories and the love of times shared together with our teammate, our soul mate, our loved one, and our friend. In our hearts, I am sure that we all have shared one special moment with this person that made us smile, cry, and even laugh. It is that moment that we hold on to and remember that will keep her memory alive. Zammie, we love you, we will miss you, and I am sure that there is a special place in heaven for you. God, please watch over Zammie until we meet again. We love you.
By: Brittany Poujol
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Alia Fabrico posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zammy, I love you so much girl. You are gorgeous in every possible way, inside and out. Just like Meg said, I will never forget our middle school memories. Torturing Mrs. Masny 8th period, writing notes back and forth all period, hanging out at your house and Mare's house, Mandy Moore, Jennifer Lopez, Selena, and many more. Nothing will ever be the same without you. Although you are not physically here with us, you are here with us in our hearts. You are an angel in heaven watching over us. God didn't let me say goodbye to you, but that is just because He knows we will meet again someday. Until then, you will be in my thoughts every single day.
Thoughts and prayers go out to Zam's family and friends.
God Bless
k
kathy kasner & jim hackett posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Dear Barbara and David,
As parents with children of our own we know what a joy children bring and can only begin to imagine what a profound loss you must be experiencing.
Zammy is at peace and please know our hearts go out to you at this most painful time.
With loving memories and sympathy,
Kathy and Jim
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Christina Teti posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zammy,
I always knew you as fredo's little sister, A great cheerleader, and a gorgeous girl. I remember all the times i took you home when i saw you walking with your friends. Zammy you will never know how much your going to be missed. To all of Zam's family I am truly sorry for this great loss. Zam you will always be in my heart forever.
M
Megan Hudak posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Zam, it's amazing how quickly time got away from us. I'll never forget all of our memories from middle school. Me, You, Jamie, and Michelle were inseparable. Walking to Jamie's every single Friday without fail, stopping at WaWa to get chips-and-dip and caramello bars. Just making fun of each other and going the mall, we had the time of our lives. Hanging out with our middle school "crew" and always having a good time, no matter what. I'll never forget sitting in your room, looking at your collection of little VW Beetles and listening to the Selena CD over and over. Well Zam, my angel, I hope you finally got to meet your idol. And I hope you are always looking down on us, smiling, and never regretting a single moment you spent in your life. I will miss you with all of my heart, and I will never forget the memories we share.
E
Eileen, Bob, Chris and Caitlin Shelton posted a condolence
Friday, November 29, 2002
Life, sometimes is so fragile. We all take things for granted, but Zammy didn?t. She lived each day with energy and love. While she was here, she lived with appreciation, wonder, and a charisma that was very rare. We, who remain here, will miss her. But, we won?t forget her. She?ll live in our hearts and our memories. She?ll live in us when we see cheerleaders cheering, kids laughing and young girls taking advantage of the short time we have on this earth. We all pass away, but not many of us get the chance to live life the way that Zammy did. Yes, we will miss her. Yes, we wish she had more time with us. But, we will never forget her and though we mourn her passing, we must also thank her for her lessons and trust that she is still here and still smiling in our hearts.
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Melanie Meade posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
I miss you so much Zammy, you always made me smile no matter what. You were always my favorite cheerleader since the day I met you. You were definatly my favorite flyer to backspot, I wish I could relive that night all over again, that was so much fun, I always loved you Zammy, you always made me happy, you are my angel now, I love you
*Melanie*
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Matt Scott posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
Zammy I will miss your smile that would light up my day and make school bearable. I would never forget in 2nd grade when you beat me up because I was picking on you and that never did quite stop. But it was still fun to torment you and I will miss that. You were an angel in life and now you are my angel forever. I love you and I will deeply miss you.
To Zammy's Family you will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
T
Tammy Mosser posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
I do know how incredibly painful it is to have a child go home to Heaven. There are some comforts in knowing that God has prepared a place for them & we will see them again some day, yet, that doesn't help to keep us from hurting from the loss.
I hope you can find some comfort in knowing Zammy is safe in the arms of Jesus & how happy He must be to have her with Him. I know Jesus is crying for you right now and knows the pain you are feeling.
I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
Tammy Mosser Daniel Wehner's aunt
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Marina Alvarez posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
Querida Alexandra:Por primera vez te escribo al cielo, desde Miami y tambien de parte de todos tus familiares que seguimos tu vida desde lejos y con la cercania de los corazones.
Ahora estaremos mas cerca porque te has convertido en nuestro angel guardian: protegenos y ayudanos a mantener unida a nuestra familia.Te ama,TIA MARINA
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Dad posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
Zammy,
You were your mothers daughter. You possessed everything I loved in your mother and more. My saving grace is that I will feel you with every hug and kiss from your mother. I will see you in her eyes and although my heart is now broken it will mend and I will cherish all that you have given me. I love you with all my heart honey, and through my dreams I promise I will be there to protect you from harm.
D
Desireé Bowen posted a condolence
Thursday, November 28, 2002
RIP Zammy 11/26/02 You will always be remembered. I love you and will miss you so much. We shared so many memories together. Our birthday party, sleepovers, sixflags, skating rinks, trips to wawa, me, you, joe and sean michelson i'de never forget that name bc of you in my basement, your daisy dukes, new years eve, I can just picture us sitting in your room singing TLCs waterfalls, and skating to Ace of Base w/ the scrunchies attached hand and hand, there are so many memories. This tragic moment in my life has really changed my thought of life. "Cause life is short but sweet for certain" -DMB I love you and your my lil sister at heart. Watch over everyone babe.
To all Zammy's family and friends your in my heart as well.
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miss you - October 20, 2003 at 12:00 AM posted a condolence
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
Zam-
Its been almost a year since your passing, and your in my thought and prayers just as much if not even more then when i first heard about your familys tragic loss. Just do us all a favor and just watch over your family and now espically your brother's new baby girl. We all miss you so much and there isnt a day that goes by without you on my mind as well as many other people. God only takes the best and he needed an angel so he took the best one of them all. We all love you and miss you so much<3*
God Bless
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